Squirrel
Welcome to Susans and congratulations on taking the first step. Yes, dysphoria and transition are scary, but if you decide to transition then if you have a good gender therapist, work with a good endo and build support then transition is certainly doable. At this stage you don't need to overthink this, connect with folk, read the many relevant threads and then work with your therapist to work out what works best for you.
Safe travels
Aisla