Quote from: sad panda on June 30, 2014, 05:19:53 PM
Transitioning hasn't made me happier, and HRT is ruining my health.... I just don't like gender so I want to eliminate it from my life as much as possible.
I'm surprised that HRT is ruining your health. It's possible that whoever is prescribing your hormones doesn't know what they're doing, and has put you on an inappropriate or harmful hormone combination. I've heard that there are still doctors handing out obsolete and potentially dangerous hormones such as premarin, Provera, or ethinylestradiol, which have been shown to be harmful and should never be part of transgender HRT. Also, some doctors keep their trans patients on antiandrogens for years, and both spiro and androcur have known health problems associated with long term use. As long as your estradiol is maintained at female-typical levels, it shouldn't usually be necessary to continue antiandrogens for more than a few months. Another commonly prescribed drug with known problems associated with it is finasteride. It's been linked to depression and "post finasteride syndrome". The same probably applies to dutasteride too, since they work in basically the same way.
So the reason you're having such a bad experience could just be that you've found yourself lumbered with a bad doctor who has put you on a lousy HRT regimen. Going on some of the things I've seen people saying on the various trans forums I subscribe to, there are plenty of clueless doctors about who are handing out sometimes quite dangerous hormone combinations.
I wouldn't recommend going on antiandrogen alone (as I think someone suggested). It's probably make you feel unwell, but more importantly can be quite damaging to your long term health. Your body needs either testosterone or estradiol to be present at male/female typical levels in order to prevent osteoporosis, and for the proper maintenance of your body.
This is all based on things I've seen other people saying, since I'm not on female HRT myself.