Hi Here is my before and after, this is my first time showing my before.
I start back in the day that we don't really have camera on the phone so I didn't have much picture of me before it was 2003. So I hope this post is not too long
Me at 2003 (as fully a complete guy)
On my first years I didn't take much photo, as I hated myself, I dress up occasionally. I go around with wig, I thought I never going to be a woman. I want all operation in the world to make me feminine. I go on a crazy diet and lose 20lbs. It was the most depress time of my life. Very low self esteem and feel bad with social.
and This is my first dress up with a wig. This was like 2005 (I already forget this, this thread make me dig up these ten years photo again)
This time my mind start to be like, I don't care anymore, I overcame the depress feeling. I gonna do the best for myself. I don't know if I going to be a woman or not, but I will just go on. I start going out to people, everyone, friends, parent, etc. As I was social independent, and job and financial independent, so I was like I don't cae if you accept me or not, I am here to inform you that I am a woman!! inside out. I lose some friend though but I feel so good at that time ^__^ It's like a relief feeling.
Then I start HRT and grow my own hair
, no more wig ( I still keep that wig ) and this is me 1 year after HRT. I went to a party in devil costume.
And that time of my life, I call "Anything make beauty, you tell me" I start doing every things that make a woman look pretty, I learn many technique of make up, hair do, spa myself, treatment. I get hair removal laser treatment at my face and my leg twice a month for 12 months straight up. I was super pampering myself, I was really strict about my routine beauty treatment, I scrubed my skin every 4 days, I do facial mask every weeks with different formula, I cream myself everyday, etc. And this is the second year HRT result
That time was the big change, I was surprise too! never though so. And then on the third to forth year it start to go to the peak of transition, I think I look the best on that time.
My first swim suit photo
Then after that, it more like try to keep yourself like that
and I start to want to have a little sexy girl masculine look so I start to go to gym again, but doing different exercise than when I was a guy and this is the result, this is me last year
so the exercise I regular do at that time was the running, abs works like sit up, I turn on youtube and search "train like an angle of Victoria Secret and regular do it. And it turn out really healthy. I use to be really afraid of exercise when I first start transition as I don't want any muscle, but after sometime I learn that if you are on HRT you won't really gain that muscle like guy did.
And today, it's been more than ten years, I admit that I really loose myself. I didn't really care much on myself. I enjoy eating no more control!!! my weight is getting over control, too many fat covering me. I getting older, I start to gain wrinkel, scar. now I try to fight weight control, the weight keep going up and not come down. I try to keep myself look young, even though I am not LOL. I plan that I will turn 50s like Madonna
. And today, I still didn't get any surgery that I plan on the first year of transition, I just get the laser treatment for hair and continuously HRT. I still plan on doing breast imp, but something always came up. I went several doctor and sit right there and something make me decide " let's do it later then "
And I am pretty scare of getting cut too. I didn't even get the ear pierce as I am too scare
This is recent of me,
