Feeling uneasy

[Kanako]

Ok, so for the people who just want a quick read and don't want to sit through a rambling, I just have 1 questions.

If being on low estrogen and no Progesterone for two years, do I have any chance for full feminization if I start now?

For the rest of you I'm sorry for putting you through this.  =X 

So I'm been feeling a little uneasy lately.  I'm coming up on my 2 year mark on my HRT and I feel like things have been lacking.  Now, I know that there are many factors involved in all of this.  But I can't help feeling that I'm not taking enough HRT to get the full benefits of my feminization.

So starting from the beginning, I started HRT when I was 30.  I know that already right there that might be a huge factor, but hear me out.  When I first talked  she told me she would prescribe me with testosterone blockers and estrogen. I had asked her about Micronized Progesterone, and she had said that she didn't think it was worth doing and it was too much of a risk.  I trusted her with the decision and still to this day I hadn't question her.

I know that we aren't supposed to discuss regiments, so I'll keep this as vague as possible.  Doing some research recently I had found that I've been taking half the amount of estrogen than the average mtf.  Which really got me worrying.

I wouldn't have really gotten all worked up, but knowing this it had made me question a lot of things.  Like morning erections still happen, my hair is still thinning, and body hair never seemed to diminish.  On top if that I never really noticed breast or nipple development, other than what I had already.  I had told my endo about all of this, but she didn't seem worried at all.  I figure I was just being anxious, and I stopped worrying about it.

So now I begin to fear that maybe for the past year and eight months I haven't been taking the correct amount of HRT.  Which leaves me worried that I just went through my second puberty without taking the full advantage, and probably lost my chance at full feminization.  My only light of hope is maybe if getting on a normal regiment I might be able to kick start it up again.  But, I don't know enough about anatomy to know if this is possible.  Which brings me back to my earlier question.

If being on low estrogen and no Progesterone for two years, do I have any chance for full feminization if I start now?

At this point I've lost all trust in my endo.  And I don't know, maybe I'm just overacting.  I would appreciate any input on this matter.

[Jessica Merriman]

If you are on half the usual "E" and no anti androgen you will not feminize. You NEED an anti androgen such as Spironolactone or such. The reason you are losing hair, still have body hair and erections is because you are taking nothing to block the "T". Most all MtF HRT patients are on both HRT meds (anti androgen and "E"). You still have time to feminize, but you need an anti androgen. I started HRT at 47 years old and my avatar is really me so it will work.

Anyway, welcome to the family Kanako! I hope you enjoy your time with us. 

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[Kanako]

My apologies, I meant to ask no progesterone not anti-androgen.  My bad.

Thanks for the welcome.  ^_^

[Jessica Merriman]

 You are on an anti androgen and low dose Estradiol for two years and you are not feminizing? Your doctor should have raised you to a higher dose of "E" by now. Doctors are split down the middle about the benefits or not of Progesterone. Are you being monitored for blood levels an a regular basis by your doctor?

[Kanako]

I had a totally of 4 check ups with her.  Of those four I had my blood checked twice.  The latest one bothered me too, she said my estrogen levels we're "Ok," in a uncertain tone.  But, she never bothered giving me the numbers.  =|

[Jessica Merriman]

Only two blood test's in two years? I would find a new doctor if I could. Levels need to be checked more than that and for the doctor to not tell you the numbers is rude and unprofessional. Is she a GP or an Endocrinologist?

[Kanako]

Endocrinologist.

[AnnaCannibal]

Yeah, something isn't right here!  You need a new endo if this is the case.  2 years and still on the low dose with no feminization?   Not to sound like a worrier, but yeah...you should worry!  This is your body and your transition.  Look up what the typical female ranges are and persist in seeing your blood results.  If she doesn't let you, time to move on and go somewhere else.