So I've gone through quite a few addictions to this day, and I'm only going to be talking about the ones I still haven't beaten yet, and yes I have addictive personality disorder.
Cutting, I've cut since I was about 13 maybe a few years younger, it started out as me scratching and seeing blood and feeling happy (because my male body was bleeding) and it got worse and worse. I eventually got to the point I had been hospitalized 43 times due to wounds I'd inflicted, this didn't count my suicide attempts. My worse suicide attempt was actually when I had a psychotic breakdown in public and slit my jugular on my left side, to this day I actually am conflicted on how I feel about surviving that (and I only barely survived cause a doctor was nearby and well a psychotic guy slits his neck tends to get people freaking out for an ambulance) I instantly tore my shirt and wrapped it around the wound but I couldn't stop the bleeding or slow it enough to prevent passing out or I would've suffocated to death. I awoke about 2 days later in a hospital restrained to the bed, and a psychiatrist next to me, I lied to the psychiatrist, he prescribed anti-depressants, I never took them. I enjoyed attempting suicide and cutting, I still today do enjoy cutting and attempting (though I haven't attempted in 3 years) for suicide attempts I would go about 3 times a year. My eating disorder didn't help this at all.
Anorexia, I was never a "chubby" kid. I was always athletic and sporty and even as a young boy I forced my parents to let me join cheer. At the age of 16 I stopped eating as much and by as much I mean I went from burning around 2600 calories a day and eating 2550-2700 to burning the same amount and eating 150-200 calories a day, I lost weight really slowly actually because the first thing that happened was I quit cheer and gymnastics, I dropped to burning maybe 1900 a day and eating around 200 a day. Eventually at the weight of 76 lbs at age 19 (last year) I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. Today I weigh around 85 lbs and I'm 20 years old. I still eat less than I should (around 1400 calories a day) but I don't exercise at all and I'm older so my metabolism has slowed down a bit.
Cleaning, I am a cleaning addicted though for the most part this one is cured (well more like I no longer am allowed to clean the house) at around age 17 I began cleaning addiction and believe it or not I was hospitalized for this a few times (about 5 and the first 2 they thought were suicide attempts at first) because I would mix bleach and ammonia together on accident (I always had both bottles and they both look very similar and have no labels) and if you don't know mixing those two chemicals actually makes a toxic chemical that in small doses will send you to the ER and any more than a quick millisecond sniff will kill, I eventually got fairly good at holding my breath while cleaning and this lead me to pass out a few times, so for those of you who didn't know, cleaning can kill you, use that one next time your parents ask you to clean your room, and if they question it tell them your friend Christine was hospitalized 5 times for accidental cleaning related harm.
Those are my current addictions. And yeah I was in tears by the first sentence of this post.
Cured addictions
Weed
Burning self
Alcohol
Advil
BC pills (after my dysphoria got real bad I tried BC pills to get estrogen)
Caffeine
Energy drinks
Tobacco
