I am in a long term relationship and started a kind of late transition last year
My wife supports me (therapy, HRT, laser, upcoming FSS) which is amazing
We are affectionate and loving but my estrogen and androcur regime, while slowly feminizing me, also basically killed my libido and put me in a bit of a depressed state, too
No erections (+) no interest (-) dark thoughts (-)
My estrogen levels are in the female range, my T levels are essentially zero
I stopped androcur (slowly) and my libido has kind of returned but my feminization (especially) breast growth has noticeably slowed down (-)
I feel like a "fake" for not going full steam with androcur and E and actually enjoying having an orgasm again. My partner is surprised and pleased at having sex again
Can E alone feminize me (without androcur) - even if it takes longer?
Still presenting "male" at work, as me (andro or full femme) outside of work and with friends and family
Moving forward and super happy with the change and so so happy to have my partner's love and support
Having some libido and interest in pleasing my partner is therefore pretty desirable
If you have struggled with similar issues (speedy transition versus having some libido) I would love for you to share your experience and would appreciate any advice
Thanks!
Monica