acting as male at work is driving me mad :/

[Zoe Louise Taylor]

Ok so im currently still going to work as a boy, and im living the rest of the time as a woman!!

At first I felt that I could deal with this, until I started hormones and then the plan was to find another job!!

The problem is that now ive started socialising and living as a woman, I just totally hate the fact that I have to spend 9 hours of the day as a boy
its getting me really down, I feel asthough im in a prison when im at work! And I dont know what to do :/

Im not ready to find a new job yet where I can be zoe, also im not gonna come out in my current job as it would mean me being bullied and mocked! And I wouldn't be able to deal with that!!

Have any of you been in a similar position? What did you do?

I hste feeling unhappy, I just want to find a way out of this

Zoe
x

[Jess42]

Well, I've never had a real normal job. All of my work has always usually been alone and could quit one job and have another one in five minutes. Never even seen the office people but once every 6 mos. But it seems you either have to bite the bullet and stay there and face the bullying and mocking. It all depends on your co workers as whether it would be good nature ribbing or malicious rumor spreading. Since you are transitioning it will become evident eventually. Or find another job.

Sorry I couldn't offer more advice but that's about the best I got..

[Ms Grace]

Yes, I was in exactly that position. That's what accelerated my transition, it was driving me nuts going to work as a guy. Making that final break and going to work as Grace was seriously the best thing ever.

Judging by your avatar I can't imagine how you get away presenting as male anyway. Is there no chance of transitioning at your current job? Do you feel management/colleagues would be too unsupportive/hostile?

[Zoe Louise Taylor]

Yes, I was in exactly that position. That's what accelerated my transition, it was driving me nuts going to work as a guy. Making that final break and going to work as Grace was seriously the best thing ever.

Judging by your avatar I can't imagine how you get away presenting as male anyway. Is there no chance of transitioning at your current job? Do you feel management/colleagues would be too unsupportive/hostile?

thanks grace

I really dont think that I would be able to transition whilst at my current job, as I currently work in a male dominated industry! And it would just be too difficult to tell people there :/ they wouldnt support me at all!!

I just feel asthough I need a new job!! I dont really like my current job much anymore, and I just want to work somewhere thats more accepting of lgbt people!!

Ive just been finding it really impossible to get any motivation, and I find myself getting quite snappy at times I need to do something about this :/ xx

[LivingTheDream]

Well idk what your current job is so I cannot really comment on how accepting they might be besides saying this: people can surprise you, you don't know until you try. In some ways it sort of seems like a win win situation to me: If they are cool and accepting of it then you can keep the job (if you wanted), if it goes bad, which it very well could, then you would find the motivation to it sounds like you need to start looking for another job.

I myself, have only told a few people about this and it went ok with all of them (so far). I planned out the entire convo and was totally worried cuz it is a big deal to me, but none of it went like I expected at all lol. So ya, basically, all that planning and worrying and stressing and staying up at night thinking bout it was for nothing cuz to others it wasn't such a big deal.

[monica93304]

It's probably the hardest part of transition for me.  I never socialize as a male. Most of my errands I run as a myself (girl).   I'm an auto mechanic.  Not easy to come out to the fellas in the shop. My boss knows.

I'm trying to figure out another line of work that will be easy to just work as a female from the get go.

Hang in there girl.

[Alaia]

Go get trained to be an electrologist, at $60 an hour I'm sure you'd earn your start up expenses back real fast. And there's always going to be people paying for it, even in a recession.