I've only had a few sessions with my therapist, but it's gone pretty well. I really worry about not passing, but apparently I have a lot going for me.
I hate my height and rib cage and I sometimes feel like chopping off my hands, but I'm feeling better. I was told that with the right hair cut I could probably get away without having FFS... but I still feel that I'll want at least my chin, jaw, lips, and brow done. I was really concerned that I'd lost my chance to successfully transition being 26, but she told me I could pass for 20 and she is correct in saying that. I could probably say that I'm 17 and get away with it. My skin is still very clear and smooth... aside from a few facial depressions from loss of facial fat over the last few years. She also said that I didn't have broad shoulders or a barrel chest and that I was slight, which was sort of a surprise. I don't think I'm very slight; but if people are saying that then I'll take it. Said it didn't seem like there was much I had to overcome.
I'm probably going to be on HRT by the end of the month or sometime in September. I'm really curious to see how things end up. I'm pretty thin but I still look fairly muscular without having a huge or overly-defined build. So I think there is some room to lose a bit and soften up some. I think my primary obstacle is my well developed forearm and hand veins... really well developed. I'm just hoping they go away. I'm also going to begin corset training to hopefully bring in my lower ribs a bit.
I feel like I could potentially surprise myself and have good-very good results or none at all. I can't tell. I'm pretty terrified while at the same time extremely excited to be starting soon...
