Back to the Heartland of Hate

[Jera]

Hi Jera,
Authenticity doesn't come naturally to most people.   That you are approaching an authentic way of life isn't necessarily infections.  Many people in my family have inoculated them from recognizing the truth and humanity of anyone they do not understand,  or who, at a gut level disagree with.
If you mean what you say, that is your side of the street.  If they don't, you have choices in how you choose to respond, and even if you choose to respond.  This weekend I've shared time in fellowship with people I love.  I did not spend it with my family.   
I cannot be involved with the rejection of who I am, and am neither strong enough nor patient enough to give them my energy if they cannot see me as beautiful,  valuable,  and lovable.  So it goes.
I and others are here for you now and always without any quid pro quo.  I always mean what I say and that is the way most of us here live.  I'll be back in cell range tomorrow give me a call if you want to talk.  You are beautiful talented,  and lovable.

Peace,
Julie

Somehow, I think you've cut to the very heart of what I am feeling right now, even though we don't know each other very well yet.

With a couple of days now in a somewhat calmer place, I'm at least mostly calm now, too. Better enough to be able to take things for one more day, at least.

Thank you, Julie. I will try to call tomorrow when I can.

Thank you so much, everyone.

[Jera]

I'm not in crisis mode anymore, so that's a good thing. Some good things came out of this trip, some bad, and I think when I get back to Nevada I'm not going to feel like I'm home. Home was here, and that's gone now. Maybe nowhere is home.

But a lot happened, mostly bad, but some actually very good. And at least, thanks to this community and the wonderful people here, I have a path forward. That's kind of a first for me.

My plane is heading back tomorrow evening, so I'm off the webs for a couple days. Love you all. Stay well.

[JulieBlair]

Safe travels kiddo.  Talk to you soon,
j

[mrs izzy]

Home is where your heart is.

Hugs.