Seriously, if you "hurt yourself in that way," they win.
The biggest way to give them "the finger" is to live and transition despite what kid of crap they give you!
Talk to your therapist, your best friend, your teacher, someone that will help you get past this part of your depression!
You're tougher than you think, after all, not everyone can be transgender, it takes serious guts to live and transition! You can do it, just be patient! One day you'll look back on this and remember "I survived this."
Trust me. It really DOES get better.
Be strong, this entire forum is there for you!
Ryuichi