3 major early transitioning fears, whats different from when u started -vs- now?

[Evelyn K]

Yesterday marks 5-months in for me and I was browsing some of my early n00b posts. LoL. Wut a n00b. Anyway I noticed I had a lot of fears and confusion (like duh) and was testing waters before going full tilt.

My three major early transitioning fears, uncertainties, confusion -vs- now...

Then: I thought being on the pill form of E was bad ass enough. That I was good to go. Life is made!
Now: I've turned into an injections only snob.

Then: I feared I wouldn't be comfortable with breast development being content to achieve flat chested androgyny.
Now: I need them, forget androgyny, they will help complete my *female* presentation.

Then: I didn't think I would lose friends.
Now: I lost my best friend, she doesn't agree. I wondered if it's her personal acceptance issue or her Buddhism. She doesn't believe the body our parents give to you should ever be manipulated.

Runners up

Then: I didn't think my face would become cute and cheeky. That I would pass.
Now: Cute and cheeky. Pass!

Then: I never considered that I would eventually have to start using women's restrooms. |  |  |  |  |
Now: Ask me again later! Next!

How about you gals? As works in progress, what has evolved in your transition fears, uncertainty, destinations?

[Auroramarianna]

Okay so.. Uhm

Social Relationships
Fear A: Losing all friends
Fear B: Losing family

Hope: gaining supportive friends

Physical
Fear A: not feminizing to a passable degree, no boobies since my female relatives have small ones
Fea B: my face getting too fat, or being too thin

Hope: Fat butt lol

Emotional
Fear: getting more depressed and having more mood swings than I already have

Hope: actually becoming more lively and enjoying life, I'm way too passive

[Ms Grace]

Then: Too tall, everyone will pick me straight away. Stares will be frequent and accusatory.
Now: Pretty much no one even looks at me.

Then: Wearing a wig will just be the worst thing ever.
Now: Couldn't pass without it and it's become intrinsic to my sense of self and confidence and (dare I say??) beauty.

Then: Disowned by my parents.
Now: Mother accepting, father in denial - not disowned.

Then: Like first attempt at transition it will be an emotional disastrous train wreck.
Now: Well and truly still on track. Happy, confident, love living as a woman.

Then: Voice = Clock Bait
Now: Apparently not. No one blinks when I use it.

[Eva Marie]

Then: I'll never pass. I look too much like a dude and at my age I don't have much hope of the hormones doing much.
Now:  Hormones did their thing. I seem to blend in pretty easily.

Then: Going out en femme in public is terrifying.
Now: Going out en femme in public is perfectly normal.

Then: Using the ladies room? Forget about it, I'll just hold it.
Now: I gotta pee. Where is the nearest ladies room?

Then: This is going to wreck my marriage.
Now: My divorce was final this week.

Then: My voice will out me.
Now: Everyone keeps telling me my voice is neither particularly male nor particularly female. It seems to work just fine for either presentation.

Most of my fears never came to pass.

[Beverly]

Then: I could never transition. It could never happen

Now: Fully transitioned and awaiting my surgical appointment.

[Hikari]

Then: I thought I was just going to be resigned to being ugly and single forever.
Now: I am starting to not be ugly, still single hopefully someday I will fix that!

Then: I thought going out en femme would be scary and people would like yell at me and stuff.
Now: Either I pass or no one cares at all.

Then: Worried about losing sensation if I had to have BA
Now: Already a C cup, so even if HRT stopped increasing their size tomorrow I could live with my breasts as is.

[Evelyn K]

Then: Worried about losing sensation if I had to have BA
Now: Already a C cup, so even if HRT stopped increasing their size tomorrow I could live with my breasts as is.

Now: I'm developing very slowly. Still a stage III tanner after 5 months. My mother was a B cup.

[stephaniec]

then:  not a clue:

          now:   happy as mouse in a cheese factory

[Jill F]

I think the big ones were A) losing my wife, friends and family, B) never passing and C) making my life even worse than it was before.

Nope, nope and nope.

[LizMarie]

Then: Losing my wife, my kids turning against me.
Now: She wants a divorce when she finishes going back to school. My kids no longer speak to me, except my daughter.

Then: Not passing.
Now: I pass fine.

Then: Voice outing me.
Now: My voice seems to be ok, especially for an older woman.

Then: My height would make me a target.
Now: No one seems to really notice me.

Then: Breast development would be minimal.
Now: So far still just an A cup but finally starting to fill in a bit better.

[justpat]

  Being accepted  Have lived in the same area since 1974, screw it this is for me
       Basically 100% acceptance ---fell over happy
  Started at 63 will never pass,  kind of or people just show respect and courtesy to a 6'6" wana be woman
     Many places greeted with smiles and hugs    Told I look like my mother  big smile 
  HRT might not work started Dec 25 2013---dropped 1300 points off T in 6 months now in 50s and e in   100s and girls 36D
      who sez HRT don't work on old farts 
   Life is good went full time July 22 2013 still smiling .