Strange

[Wild Flower]

The past week, I lost my ability to focus, to concentrate, and all I could think about is how I can become prettier without looking gay. I neglected my work, but the social effect is what I wanted, I work on my face, tanning lotion, hydrogen peroxide in my hair, clothing that makes me look thin, colognes all the time, shave a little off my eyebrows (but it looks natural), nothing about what I did looks gay or pinpoints that I did something specific.... it's all natural looking.

. It work, I say. The past day, a barber gave me a free haircut (hard to explain but he was into me), a female implied that I was glamourous, females are looking at me which wasn't what I expected, but by becoming prettier I became more attractive. I think I resemble a mixture of a latin pop star and Justin Bieber (depending how I style my hair). It's still a very masculine haircut. But I change my voice a bit, "it's higher pitch, dumb down-blonde" voice but it's not the gay voice. I became into a pretty boy.

Although that has change, guys change around me, they want to look at me... which to me indicates people are more bisexual than what they think. It's like their in awe when they see me, and my clothing isn't even that special. They became more aggressive towards me if they are not more gentle. My friends became more possessive over me. Guys just act different to me, and I wasn't expecting that. Females are comfortable talking to me, if not they are approaching me. One guy he was excited to see me, and he wanted to shoe shopping with me when I was walking in the local mall, but when his friends came around, he kind of lose his excitement... but then he must had talk about it because he friends want to shop for shoes with me..

After talking to one guy yesterday, 5 minutes later he was combing and fixing his hair, and I know it was because of me. I think I earn the female privilege, and yet still being a male. I had a guy give me a chocolate bar 'just because' last week (very symbolic to me), guys paying for things for me, holding doors for me. It's amazing.  By being more feminine, guys and females talk to me way more than ever before...

Is this even normal???

[Auroramarianna]

I hear you.

One thing is for sure: by the way you describe, I'd say you have people who have the hots for ya, so you're attractive. But I don't think it's only about being attractive. You may appear as a nice, friendly person in general. Or you have a happy vibe. Happy people are more desirable.

And you have people chasing ya. Maybe they want to be friends or maybe they're just nice. Not all people are interested romantically. But um I guess uh yeah.

[Foxglove]

You haven't said much, if anything, of your past, but if people are friendlier to you now, it may have something to do with you.  If you've made changes in your life, if you're happier about yourself, it could be you're putting out different vibes that people like.  Not knowing anything about your past, I can't say.  Maybe you could think about this yourself and see if you can discover the reasons.

[Jess42]

Yeah it is normal. Whether or not it is actual female privilege I don't know. But it does seem a lot for guys may be more bi or into trans women than what they want think or let on to be. I notice when my eyebrows are shaped, arm hair trimmed and not all gorilla looking and no stubble on my face. There is a lot more help from guys than what there should be. Maybe it's trans girl privilege and a lot more guys attracted to trans women than they are willing to admit to other than guys they consider closer friends. I do know I have heard guys talk about the porn girls that are trans while posing as a real guy. It's really surprising some of the crap they will show you if they think you are one of them. Even if you're not, like me.

I do notice the more girly I look the more help I get from guys. If I have a goatee, I don't get the same help or consideration. So really who knows? I would even be afraid to guess or assume. Of course I am one of those in the ass category, so I will and say that the more girly even a guy looks with hair, no facial hair and eyebrows plucked and arms that aren't too hairy, guys will give a little more attention and a lot more help with taking the place of one of my drivers. Shaving arms though, too many guys do that here, so I don't. Just trim. But it is interesting. If I have a goatee, I get treated like crap. Otherwise no facial hair and shaped eyebrows, I get all kinds of consideration. Almost flirty like. That is a thinker. Honest to god though, I think no matter what they say about us, there are a lot of guys that like MTFs. Of course I may be fooling myself but it's just an observation that I have seen over and over again in an ultramasculine field.