Just reading a few of the first posts here, and I'm like.. "there's a way to turn thoughts OFF?!"
Thoughts are literally the most annoying thing in my life. My brain is constantly active, not a second can pass without it just constantly saying something, especially things I DO NOT WANT TO HEAR. Really, I have no control over what I think. I just listen to what it says and elaborate on it.
Sleep, laying down was mentioned. Whenever I just sit, or lay, or try to go asleep alone or not even alone, just where its... quiet; this is the worst for me because this is when I think the MOST. This is when my brain goes in to details about topics in my life... Creating theories, then spending an hour trying to find holes in them. This really bugs me because all my friends and my family can fall asleep in like 5 minutes and expect I do the same. When I lay down, it takes me about four hours to fall asleep on average. This is for three reasons: My thoughts which I mentioned earlier, my little fantasy of a mind that belongs to the author side of me (I love to write, so I just am thinking about plots and entire stories when I go to sleep, trying to figure out a good book to write the next day). Then there's also getting comfortable. It doesn't matter what I do, I'm uncomfortable. This makes it hard to focus on trying to fall asleep. A lot of this problem comes from (and sorry if this is a bit graphic) my ever so despised penis. If only I could cut the little jerk of a thing off, it would make life so much easier. But that creates problems dealing with transitioning, and the possibility of death just by doing it in the first place.
Instructions on how to get my brain to shut up, anyone? I could really use some.
Oh, also what I think about, the actual QUESTION of this topic.. hehe. Nonstop transgender/transsexual whatever the correct term is (I'm a newbie, today would be Day 8 for me, so don't judge my lack of knowledge on terminology). I literally cannot stop thinking about it. That, of course, ranges from being self-conscious, hating being called a boy by my friends and family, all in all hating my body/appearance. Also, the future. I've been an anxious person all my life, so yeah, I think about the future a lot. :/
-To Be Named