What are you thinking? 9.0

[Shantel]

I am thinking about how much I will miss everyone here in this family. You all meant more than you ever knew and I am sorry I let some here down. It was not intentional in the least. 

Wait, wait, wait what is it? You can't go anywhere Jessica, you're one of the most loved and respected people here.

[Edge]

I'm wondering how I can make my long, curly hair more masculine without straightening it since there will be days I can't and it's bad for my hair anyway.
I wonder if it would help to wear a bandana (like a pirate) or if people would think that looks stupid.

[Edge]

I am thinking about how much I will miss everyone here in this family. You all meant more than you ever knew and I am sorry I let some here down. It was not intentional in the least. 

Wait what? What happened?

[Blue Senpai]

I am thinking about how much I will miss everyone here in this family. You all meant more than you ever knew and I am sorry I let some here down. It was not intentional in the least. 

What are you on about?

[Jera]

Yeah, don't go, Jessica. If it's about some people misunderstanding what you say, you can't control that. Someone always will.

You tried to do what you felt was right, and that's what matters. So many more admire and respect you for that, even if being more silent about it.

[Jessica Merriman]

It is OK everyone. I let Nero down and now probably my sister Sephirah and it hurts more than you know. I have also caused a division among staff and that was not my intention. Even one member leaving this place because of me is unacceptable to me. I did the best I could here, but unfortunately it has not been enough. I just want everyone here to know your dreams ARE attainable and yours for the taking. Live true to yourselves, laugh, live, love and apologize to no one. 

[Shantel]

I am thinking about how much I will miss everyone here in this family. You all meant more than you ever knew and I am sorry I let some here down. It was not intentional in the least. 

Somewhere I got it that someone felt that you disrespected someone, well that's bullcrap, you've never disrespected me or anyone here. Whoever came up with that needs to get a life and get over their rectal/cranial inversion.

[Ashlotte]

It is OK everyone. I let Nero down and now probably my sister Sephirah and it hurts more than you know. I have also caused a division among staff and that was not my intention. Even one member leaving this place because of me is unacceptable to me. I did the best I could here, but unfortunately it has not been enough. I just want everyone here to know your dreams ARE attainable and yours for the taking. Live true to yourselves, laugh, live, love and apologize to no one. 

I'm so new here, and I definitely don't know you personally, but in my short time here you have stood out as an extremely kind and caring woman, and I would hate to see you leave.

I also don't really understand what it is that you did, but if you caused a member to leave, then how is losing another going to make it better? You leaving won't solve anything. The fact that you feel such remorse for your actions is enough to make up for whatever they were. Nobody wants you to leave. I sincerely hope you stay and continue here as the influential person you've proven to be.

[Bombadil]

It is OK everyone. I let Nero down and now probably my sister Sephirah and it hurts more than you know. I have also caused a division among staff and that was not my intention. Even one member leaving this place because of me is unacceptable to me. I did the best I could here, but unfortunately it has not been enough. I just want everyone here to know your dreams ARE attainable and yours for the taking. Live true to yourselves, laugh, live, love and apologize to no one. 

the division among staff will work out. give it time. saying someone left because of you gives you more power than you really have.they are making a choice to leave instead of trying to find a way to be here. thats there choice. i've watched how you interact with others. ive seen you be firm. ive seen you give tough love. ive never seen you be cruel. ive seen you show a willingness to work things out. ive seen you care.

as far as nero goes... i ache for you. you are human and you werent there. really you did nothing wrong but because of nero's choice you are left with that knowledge you werent there. ive lost friends through suicide. i can tell you exactly where i failed my friends. but in a way they failed me too. it's the cost of caring and being human and fallible. it's the reality of everyone having their own needs and lives. sometimes our lives intersect just right and we can connect and give and grow together. and sometimes are paths just miss each other and we have to live with the could have beens. and sometimes are paths cross and and we misread the signals and crash into each other.

but if you keep going there's more opportunities for those moments when things line up right. if you leave here you are taking away all those opportunities. and i've really wanted to get to know you and dont want yo lose those chances. and there are so many-other people here who care about you and don't want to lose the connections they have with you.

some wise person said " Live true to yourselves, laugh, live, love and apologize to no one."

[Jessica Merriman]

some wise person said " Live true to yourselves, laugh, live, love and apologize to no one."

I hate it when that happens!!  OK, first laugh in 36 hours. Christopher wins!!

Use my own quotes against me again Mr. and you are so BANNED! 

[Bombadil]

Woot!!! ive been banned. finally i'm a bad boy. woo hoo. i'm a fierce like a wolverine bad boy. i hear it's the bad boys that get the girls. 



so you're gonna stay, right?

[Jessica Merriman]

Woot!!! ive been banned. finally i'm a bad boy. woo hoo. i'm a fierce like a wolverine bad boy. i hear it's the bad boys that get the girls. 

OMG! I have done it now! 

I am still debating my presence here, but you and the others have shown me I am not all that bad. Thanks everyone. 

[Bombadil]

wait it out. youll find out you do more good than harm. us bad boys know things

[Jessica Merriman]

us bad boys know things

Yup it is official. I have created Frankentrans!

[Adam (birkin)]

I made some reaaaally crispy bacon and it tastes so good omg.

[Shantel]

Woot!!! ive been banned. finally i'm a bad boy. woo hoo. i'm a fierce like a wolverine bad boy. i hear it's the bad boys that get the girls. 



so you're gonna stay, right?

That makes you a bonafide dyed in the wool real member!  She ain't goin nowhere!

[Apples Mk.II]

Getting nervous waiting for an answer to my last e-mail to Chett's assistant. It's stupid since they will be reading all the mail from over the weekend, but still...

I already picked vacations to match the surgery date and the stimated post-op recovery, and I need to start doing the tests and getting shots.

[GenTechJ]

Hoping everyone here from Northern California is ok after yesterday's earthquake. My family and I are ok, a few dvds and pictures fell, but no damage here. Stay safe folks.

Same with those here from Peru, hope everyone is alright.

[Shantel]

Hoping everyone here from Northern California is ok after yesterday's earthquake. My family and I are ok, a few dvds and pictures fell, but no damage here. Stay safe folks.

Same with those here from Peru, hope everyone is alright.

[Shantel]

Waiting for the big one here in Washington state specifically the Seattle area. There's a big plate diving under the Pacific coast line that is expected to jump eventually, the folks at FEMA region 10 close by and the geologists at U of W say it could run high as 9 on the Richter scale. All those on the Pacific rim are subject to experiencing earthquakes. Mount St. Helen's eruption several years ago was just a pimple on the face of the planet getting a little pressure relief.