What are you thinking? 9.0

[King Malachite]

Hmmm if I recall correctly, I joined this site a couple of days after the Christmas in 2011.  I spent most of my time trying to find people who understood me in the LBGT section of Yahoo Answers, where an MtF gave me a couple of links to some transgender sites: Laura's Playground and this one included.  I made an account over at Laura's first, but I eventually found my place over here.  I had lurked for a while until I mustered up some courage to join. 

I'm glad spacial and Dennis are doing fine.  I don't remember the last time Miniar posted.  In a way, I kind of feel old being here as I see new people join and unfold their stories: their successes, their failures, their heartaches, their accomplishments....going from being pre-transition to being post-op.

[Miss_Bungle1991]

I heard elsewhere that South Park is going with another episode focused on gender. I decided to hop over to the forum and see what was what. Apparently, it's true and the douches on the forum are just as ignorant now as they were back when the Garrison episode debuted. Even though I haven't watched the show for several years, I'm sure it will suck and completely miss the point entirely.

[Devlyn]

What seems to be the problem? Everything looks fine to me.

Off to the optometrist with you! Chop chop!

Devlyn's back! I didn't know you were back

Hi hon! How's the sheep and your hydroponics?

[Blue Senpai]

Wow. I can't believe its October 8th.

[Dee Marshall]

Vacation starts a week from Friday. Still so much to do at work!

[Liam Erik]

    Doing excellent at the moment.  Hard to believe it is October 8, but the ewes are going to be bred three weeks from tomorrow for lambs at the turn of April.  I still have all my lambs from this year.  The ewes are in great shape; it was a cool summer and the grass never burned off.  A month ago we fenced in some new land for pasture that they'll have in spring.  It may just give us more grass than they can eat, which I've never said before.  The hydroponics I feel like I've finally gotten the hang of.  Lately I've been turning six and a half pounds of dry barley grain into two full five gallon buckets of sprouts - in six days.  They go nuts for it.  They're well fed, I guess is the bottom line.  I hope you're doing well too.

I've been here since summer of 2011.  I reckon I'd have over 2,100 posts except that I tend to purge them.  I often wonder about people who've moved on.  Just yesterday thinking about Wil Najera, because he left here in trouble and not doing well, and hasn't logged in since April.

[Mariah]

I wish the repair guy would hurry up and get here.

[Jaime R D]

Going fishing..

[Devlyn]

Whatchya got out there, stripers?

[Jaime R D]

Pompano and whiting so far. Moving further down the island now.

[Tossu-sama]

If someone had told me couple years ago that I'd be drawing things like THIS, I wouldn't have believed.

Oh well, I'm not complaining. This is some hot stuff.

[Blue Senpai]

Now where am I going to hide 5 T prescription bottles...

[immortal gypsy]

Now where am I going to hide 5 T prescription bottles...

Buy a small backpack, try and find one with a single strap that goes across the body.
Don't let the bag leave your sight ever. You'll soon find people don't like going through guys bags so they will be safe in there. Plus when you go shopping hey your environmental conscious (that's an excuse for you). Just remember what you are hiding something in there so keep the bag zip closed.

And people think I'm all loving nice and sweet . If I'm good I got away with it, if I was really good everyone else got in trouble but me

[Ali girl]

Hmmmm.  What am I to wear while I take my daughter with me to the gas light anthem concert (special guest is Laura Jane Grace) 

I'll never be disappointed with the increase in clothing options, but what to wear...

Look a squirrel!

Homework needs done...

Damn ADHD!

[Jaime R D]

Nice view from the rv tonight.

[MyKa]

Idk, been killing me lately. How am I not to feel conceited or self centered about myself not taking into the consideration of others. For a long time now when I'm out with anyone mainly with my parents (lacking on the amount of friends) it's always lady's this ma'am that and to me it a since of accomplishment but at the same time like tonight sitting across from my mother at dinner greeted by the server hello ladies...it's what is my mother thinking deep inside is it killing her that I'm being acknowledge as just one of the girls or what idk. I don't know when she got pregnant what she hoped for, I certainly don't think it was for something like me. (Crying) it upsets me to think I let her down or that she is disgusted by me in ways that I can never fix to make her happy. I know as a person we r to be a happy and don't think will never reach a comfortable level of happiness.....I sure put on a good face though.
Sometimes I fear that all the accomplishments I have strived towards are for nothing. Sorry if I'm rambling I'm in a bad place right now with no answers

[Shantel]

MyKa,
      You are not responsible for your parent's feelings, they alone have to own and work through it and they will in time. You continue on with your life's plans and don't let their disappointment ruin your own joy. They are adults and will get over it eventually.

[Miss_Bungle1991]

I've come to the realization that I am pretty much screwed as far as breasts are concerned. I lost 52 pounds over a year and a half. I gained it back within the last 4 months. None of the new fat went anywhere other than my torso.

Oh well.

[MyKa]

I just feel like I let them down from the beginning

[Ali girl]

I just feel like I let them down from the beginning

The anxiety of a stressor is always worse than the actual stressor.  I'm sure if asked, you parents would be just as proud of you as they always were. 

The hardest thing to remember is that transition to us is also transition to others.  My wife actually says that she feels like I'm dying and some chick just like me is moving in...