I'm thinking about sexuality.
My friend came out as bi the other day. I was not expecting that. Not that there's anything wrong with it (obviously). It just got me thinking. I'm not entirely sure about what. This isn't the first time someone who people generally think is straight has told me they're bi. In fact, most of my group of friends seems to be bi. For example, my friend lives on the same floor as five more of our friends and four out of the six of them are now out as bi/pan/some form of not straight.
We got on to the subject of my sexuality which I feel kind of guilty about now since I think I talk too much about myself and I mentioned how I just go with bi since I don't really care who I have sex with. I told him how I don't actually get physically attracted to anyone, but I like having sex. He brought up the possibility that I'm asexual. It's something I've considered before, but it's not very often that people consider it in association with me. Because I like sex. That's the thing about sexuality labels isn't it? Sometimes, I consider myself gay because I prefer men and all of my experiences are with men. But, honestly, I'd sleep with anyone which I've been told makes me pan, but I don't like that term for reasons, so I use bi. But I'm technically not physically attracted to anyone. (I think. I don't actually know what it would feel like, so I guess I don't know if I feel it or not. Maybe I have felt it. How would I know?) Which would make me asexual. Except I like sex and, according to a lot of people, that means I can't be asexual. It's confusing. I think I'll just leave it as is.
Speaking of coming out, another of my friends came out to me as genderfluid. I considered telling her about me (she already knows I'm ftm. She doesn't know I may be a bit more fluid than I admit), but thought it might seem like I was copying her, so I didn't.
