I feel like, even though I found coverage for my shift, there's going to be issues without me there........leadership has been all up in our asses too about various things, so I don't want to end up inadvertently in the line of fire. I feel like soon there may be a few people getting fired. I hope I'm not one of them. I feel like I've developed good rapport with leadership, and I think that barring a few mistakes (which every single one of us has made), I'm a good worker. I've even taken initiative and acted as a leader when the occasion has called for it, and made good judgment calls in those situations. I think I just have an irrational fear of losing any job I have.
I also need to start being more of a hardass with my money. I'm not working unreasonable hours anymore, I can't spend the same way anymore.