My family has been good to me lately, and it's weird. I've had some more big expenses suddenly pop up, and mom said "well, your surgery needs to remain the priority." And my grandma has this Christmas thing, custom made and hand painted, with "Grandma's Sweeties" on it. It has the names of all 5 of us handwritten by an artist. The other day, she pointed it out and there was a blank space where my birth name used to be. I was looking at it and she saw, and said "I erased it. I have to try and replicate the way the artist wrote the names so I can write your new name. But my hands are shaky so I don't know how I will do it." She also told me to wear an ironed dress shirt for Christmas so she could replace the picture on the wall where I look like a girl.
