I changed my genetic marker to FEMALE at Susan's for the first time ever today.

[JohannaJohn]

Johanna here again gals, hi,

Today, I changed my genetic marker here at Susan's to FEMALE.

For the first time ever.



Why did I do this?  Well, the answer is really quite simple...

I AM FEMALE, and I want to shout it to the world.

Love,
Johanna.

[Evelyn K]

[Emmaline]

It is a silly little thing, but boy it feels good doesn't it?

[Jess42]

SHOUT IT!!! Be proud of it. It may just be an F with pink around it in a square but it is really something to be proud of, ain't it?

[JustFirefly]

Putting it as female made me smile, it was a wonderful feeling. You go girl~

[Jess42]

Big Welcome to womanhood. No matter what. Welcome.

[JohannaJohn]

Jess...Firefly...Emmaline...Evelyn...

I am crying right now...as I write this...

It is is the second time in 3 minutes I started crying, the first time was when I read your replies...

Your words are poetry to me...

The sky opening up, to my female freedom...

Now I am crying more profusely...

You gals are great...BFF's for forever...

I can cry now...I am never embarrassed to cry now...these are tears of happiness, sincere happiness...

I have found my way...

I am free...

My new breasts will make it more and more necessary to appear in public as I truly feel...

As you girls...

I am no longer poisoned by testosterone...

E and P are my true hormonal balance, and I am mentally whole now...

The physical part, especially my fast-growing breasts and great growing new beautiful hair, is a natural outgrowth of internal happiness...

Internal and external match, and converge...

My mental sky and my physical sky combine, in a giant tapestry, integrated, as one...

I now close my eyes as I type, and I picture my tapestry of freedom in the sky....

In search of inner and external peace...and I have found it...

Life is not forever on this earth, maybe our souls are forever, I don't know for sure, but my peace has arrived, my heart is tranquil...

You girls UNDERSTAND me...you UNDERSTAND how I FEEL...

You are there, in my mental sky tapestry, combining my mental and physical reality...

Now more tears again, my right eye now has a lot liquid dripping down...I don't want to wipe away this giant tear of happiness now falling from my right eys...it tickels me a little...

My sky is blue, my future is bright, upward in our great journey of discovery we fly...

Johanna has lost her Fear of Flying, to borrow from 1970s female genuis author Erica Jong (you can look her up on Google, I highly recommend it).

Clarity.

Peace.

A calm heart.

A heart with feelings.

Mere words, but these words echo my deepest soul...

I AM FEMALE.

Johanna.

[AnneB]

Johanna..  I am so happy for you, hon!  Welcome, Sister!  I teared up from your euphoria, and giddiness, and remembered when I registered here, it was.. so .. terrifying choosing Female, yet, so finally, liberating..  scared beyond all reason, but joyous in doing so because I finally admitted to myself who I was.  And thus began this journey of mine, of ours, meeting some of the most amazing women I have ever seen.  You are among them hon.  I truly mean that!

Paula

[JohannaJohn]

Johanna..  I am so happy for you, hon!  Welcome, Sister!  I teared up from your euphoria, and giddiness, and remembered when I registered here, it was.. so .. terrifying choosing Female, yet, so finally, liberating..  scared beyond all reason, but joyous in doing so because I finally admitted to myself who I was.  And thus began this journey of mine, of ours, meeting some of the most amazing women I have ever seen.  You are among them hon.  I truly mean that!

Paula

Paula, I cried hard when I absorded your feelings into my soul...I feel your sincerity...we are sisters...our voyage to freedom...why am I crying so much...

"Mere" words, yet, a mirror to our souls...

J

[Jess42]

OMG, don't get me started with the tears.

No poetry. It is who you are Johanna. Safe we can drop the John after this. Welcome to womanhood. Yeah we understand. Now you got me in tears. Oh god now I'm mad at you. You 're messing up my ACDC. Seriously though, you are messing up my ACDC with tears and that is good time Rock and Roll.

Seriously though without the ACDC and all the feigned PO , you can be you here. If you wanna' keep the John part that is fine too. Just be you, we accept everyone.

PS. Please stop the crying before I get started.

[JohannaJohn]

Paula, it is the liberation of the female mind...

There, from birth, hidden until now, denied, repressed, yearning to be set free...

To FLY, a new bird, a Phoenix, a rebirth, a "new person" emerges...

BUT...

Is this REALLY a "new" person?

Or did our mommy's uterus just make a mistake with us girls?

We have re-entered our mommies, and our mommies got it right this time...

Johanna.

[Allyda]

Johanna I'm very very so so happy for you. My eyes are welling up over your joyfulness of femininity. Congratulations!

Ali

[Evelyn K]

OMG I am CRYING my brains out right now!!!!

[JohannaJohn]

OMG I am CRYING my brains out right now!!!!

So am I Evelyn, as I close my eyes to sleep.

Johanna.

I will drop the "John" tomorrow in the morning.

[AnneB]

gawd we're all going now!!  I just wanna know, how can someone cry so much and not become dehydrated??

and my opthamoligist is concerned about my dry eye??  HA!  little does he know!!

Johanna.. you don't need the second name, hon..  you are finally becoming real.  No more playing a sad part in a bad movie.  Crying is just part and parcel of this.  I have cried an ocean of tears for months, each time I let another friend into my circle (I pick one close friend each week).  It feels a little better, each time I break down a wall, and let more light into my life.  You will know that feeling.  And it will free your heart.  Love you hon, I really mean that.

Paula

[Jess42]

No you aren't Evelyn, but Johanna, the unique. Sweety, you are your own so if you want, drop the John now and be the true you. But if you want to keep the John part, that is fine too.

[Evelyn K]

So am I Evelyn, as I close my eyes to sleep.

Johanna.

I will drop the "John" tomorrow in the morning.

Johanna, you and I and our tingling nipples and growing breast are going to be OK. I promise.

[AnneB]

^^ this !

[JohannaJohn]

Johanna, you and I and our tingling nipples and growing breast are going to be OK. I promise.

Yes Evelyn, We will be OK.  I know you are right.

The dual headlights announcing a physical reality of female-ness on the outside, are shining brighter and brighter.

Johanna.

[Evelyn K]

Johanna, my nipples and breasts are bouncing in concurrence. We really are sisters of the highest order. I'm twirling my tassels in happyness for you Johanna. The tears from my happiness are splashing off my tassels and sprinkling the flowers nearby. The flowers are blossoming and smiling for you Johanna.

(Hugs)