Well as the tittle implies, my mum now knows.. She flew down for two days to where I have been working (Dunedin NZ) with the knowledge that I had something big to tell her, but not quite what (don't worry she knew it wasn't terrible news).
For some background on me,; I'm fulltime now although I've only been on HRT for about 12 weeks, things have happened kinda fast and mentally I just cant do boy mode anymore... I don't really know if I pass but I know longer stress too much about it, I don't seem to notice any horrible stares or anything though. My face has changed, my hair has grown out a bit and has gotten quite cute and wavy/curly which helps me with passing I think (if I do pass at all), I've lost a lot of body mass and have small boobs now lol. I'm totally out at work and to everyone that knows me down here, I smile so much more now
So I picked her up at the airport, totally freaking out, I was in full day makeup and my new feminine take on my what I need to wear for work.. Her look when I turned around to face, god I felt so bad, the stages of recognition then questioning, then partial understanding of what she was seeing were torture, luckily I just dived in for a huge hug as soon I could to spare us both..
Well as you can imagine a really big talk ensued... wine was drunk and we went out for a nice meal..
Well an already long story slightly shorter... Although initially she shocked she is not all that surprised apparently, I have two brothers and I was the one she always expected to be different, she told me about all of this stuff I did as a toddler and small child which I had no idea about until now, which was really interesting to hear. They were just things like pre socialisation interests and nature, through to the way I walked etc. Apparently she's always wondered about my unusually wide hips and narrow waist etc, plus a few more feminine body traits, lucky me I guess. After talking it all out she now probably my biggest supporter, it's just so great!
Apparently this me is much more likeable lol, we decided on my new name and she is being great about using it and the right pronouns too. I was so worried it would be totally shocking and horrifying for her and she would think it was wrong etc.
We ended up having a great time and I think we are now closer than ever, I'm just so happy! We did cover the tough issues too though, she worries about my future and my being a lot more vulnerable now... I think I mostly assuaged her fears but I worry that she still worries a lot.. (crazy women lol).
Well it is a huge weight off, I'm so glad I told her now as the next opportunity will be less than a week before I fly off for FFS... and that would have been terrible of me...
Thanks for listening to my tale lol, take care everyone, and thanks for the amazing info and support
Claire
