Is there anyone here who isn't transitioning but wants to do it?

[boredrooster]

Are there people like me? People who are choosing not to transition for a lot of complicated reasons?

For example I can't transition because of my family issues and fear of becoming more ugly. This is going to sound shallow and messed up but I rather live as an ugly male (current) than an ugly transgendered female... I'm going to be forced to live most if not all of my young life as a male assuming I can't handle my gender dysphoria anymore. I guess that's life. Are there others like me?

[Sammy]

There is a whole subsection dedicated to issues related to non-transitioning/de-transitioning
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/board,487.0.html
Also, I can attest that reading more and more stuff about transitioning, as well as watching YT videos can build up anxiety and frustration to the level when GD couple with various alternative future scenarios becomes unbearable (been there, done that), so watch out for those!
Besides, if You do have GD that does not mean You have to transition or transition fully - there are other alternatives to explore, like social/non-hormonal transition, low-dosage HRT and others. Dont loose Your hope because You are still quite young and things might look different after a year or two, or around the next corner

[katiej]

In my early 20's I came to the conclusion that transition just wasn't possible for me, and for some of the same reasons you mentioned.  And I was able to keep the dysphoria mostly pushed down for a good 10 years before it came back in force.  And from what I can tell, that's pretty common.

Rooster, no one is saying you have to transition now...or at all.  Some never do.  But be careful about the downward spiral of gender dysphoria. 

[ImagineKate]

For me, not transitioning earlier and just dealing with my dysphoria (by simply ignoring it and hoping it would go away) has cost me valuable years and left me with more to undo. I am at the point now where I have to do it or I won't be able to function in daily life. The expectations of others and that of society have kept me back and left Ms Kate imprisoned in this body. She made an escape attempt once with the help of some friends from the Pacific, but while freedom was sweet, with it came reality that living on the lam was no fun. Now she's hoping to with the help of some therapy to finally negotiate her release.

But ultimately it's your choice and only you know what's best for you.

As for becoming more ugly, from what I've seen that's really up to you. I've seen some magnificent transitions so anything is possible.

[JoanneB]

In my early 20's I came to the conclusion that transition just wasn't possible for me, and for some of the same reasons you mentioned.  And I was able to keep the dysphoria mostly pushed down for a good 10 years before it came back in force.  And from what I can tell, that's pretty common.

Rooster, no one is saying you have to transition now...or at all.  Some never do.  But be careful about the downward spiral of gender dysphoria.

I gave up the dream in my 20's after twice experimenting with transitioning and stopping for a variety of valid reasons back then. None of which today I can say were BS followed by "I should of..."

I had by some measure a good 30 year run of by all appearances being a "Normal" and fairly successful guy. As long as you discount slowly turning into a lifeless, soulless machine devoid of all hopes wishes and dreams, bar one given up on long long ago.

THen about 7 years the excrement hit the air handler big time. Since then I've learned a lot about myself and made some very big advances in relearning what it is to be a person. I also got to fullfill my lifelong dream of being seen as and accepted as a woman. Yet today I am still don't really want to. By most accounts not many want to, they NEED to. The healthier and happier I am about being me, the less the need to.

Yet, I know all too well where my true joy lies