Urgent (srs) Please reassure me!

[butterflies]

So I had my surgery yesterday afternoon. I'm pretty sure they might have switched surgeons on me since by the time I was being put to sleep I hadn't seen the main surgeon anywhere. If the results are good I don't care, but I don't exactly feel good about it. I guess it's possible they didn't switch but he wasn't even in the operating room....

It's pretty painful now but realistically speaking not that much (I mean, not an amount I think would indicate a problem. Less than you'd expect from someone cutting deep into you and removing s bunch of flesh and whatnot.)

It was a scrotal skin graft srs.

I took pictures earlier when they put on the compression bandages and whatnot. There was some cotton type material along the length of the vagina. There's also some filler stuff and I can feel that it sits inside me (but maybe not that deep inside me, feels like 3" )
But the pictures weren't very good so idk what to think.

I heard the nurses talk in Thai "it's closed already" but when I asked about that she quickly said that she meant the wounds were closed as in not bleeding so there wouldn't be much to clean. different shifts have different nurses so they don't all know I speak Thai.
I heard a couple speak "what is she doing her, no white people ever come here, how come she didn't go to suporn or something"

But my Thai friend said he's a good surgeon and the results are"okay l meaning it's not stellar but definitely not bad. She also said a couple of her friends had their srs with this Dr and there were no problems.

They said on day 5 the stuffing would be removed and the dilation started. They assured me it can't close because of the dressing stuffed inside that keeps it open.

Am I worrying over nothing? But I kind of am really worried about it closing or not having enough depth.

I didn't see any"suspicious" behavior like signs of lying (I can usually tell if an Asian person is lying because of my background)

I asked to have a nurse undress it and take a photo today and they said okay but when they actually came to clean me hours later they said they don't want to undress it because it's stopped bleeding and they don't want to risk it bleeding again. They said it's possible to take a photo tomorrow morning.

Does any of this sound off in any way?Am i worrying for nothing?

The pain is unpleasant and the codeine isn't helping. Still an hour or two before I'm allowed my next injected dose of opiates.

Some support and honest opinions would be nice. Thank you.

Ps. Am I weird for not feeling much anything after looking at my severely swollen vagina? I'm glad to be finally rid of that stupid dongle. I'm glad I have a vagina. Finally, so much time wasted. But I'm not even 30 so I guess it's still okay... But honestly... besides the worry that it closes or isn't very deep (which also doesn't have me sweating over it) my feelings are about the same magnitude people feel when they run out of pasta and they go to the store to buy it. Yeah, you needed it and you're glad you got it in time before your guests arrived but it's just pasta? I probably am the only one who thinks/feels this way..usually I'm reallyremotional. Maybe it's because I decided to get surgery since the very beginning but it took years before I did so when I actually did there was nothing left to feel? Other than relief and "finally it's done"

[butterflies]

Fixed the title. Auto correct sucks...

[mrs izzy]

I will say, relax and breathe.

You need to put you energy into healing. It is a ugly looking kitty for some (long) time.

Relax the stuffing is the Stent that keeps it open.

Hugs

[butterflies]

The nurse just injected morphine into my drip. I can kind of feel it working but the pain still isn't gone :/

[butterflies]

I will say, relax and breathe.

You need to put you energy into healing. It is a ugly looking kitty for some (long) time.

Relax the stuffing is the Stent that keeps it open.

Hugs

I know the scars will take months to heal and the swelling too... I'm not impatient, I just want the results to be okay looks and depth wise....I'll try to concentrate on healing. Thank you, I guess I should trust the stuffing...

[Flan]

+1 what izzy said.

It's going to be ugly for a good month or so and more for swelling to go back down to the point where you'll know if you want a labia touchup. The vaginal packing is standard for skin based vaginoplasty along with the dressing on the vulva to provide compression/absorb blood. The morphine being on the lighter side is a precaution to avoid nausea and constipation since your first BM is important to make sure nothing bad happened(tm).

You're past the worst part so things will get better (pain and energy wise).

[butterflies]

+1 what izzy said.

It's going to be ugly for a good month or so and more for swelling to go back down to the point where you'll know if you want a labia touchup. The vaginal packing is standard for skin based vaginoplasty along with the dressing on the vulva to provide compression/absorb blood. The morphine being on the lighter side is a precaution to avoid nausea and constipation since your first BM is important to make sure nothing bad happened(tm).

You're past the worst part so things will get better (pain and energy wise).

Thank you <3.I guess I should remember that. "You're past the worst part"
I did something stupid though. I was so hung up on taking a photo that when I was alone I Opened the dressings/compression bandages enough to get a photo. My fingers brushed the non-wound skin (healthy skin) I closed it up again. Now I have a slight fever and it's quite painful. Constant, dullish pain.  I asked the nurses if I might have an infection and if they could clean it again but they eye just "no no no infection, fever and pain are normal on the first day" I guess they're right and on the other hand my immune system is pretty good, the things I eat and the way I lived since childhood made sure of that. But it's a gaping open hole into my body and I touched near it with my dirty fingers. So I just worried a little. The pain seems to be getting a little less now. Hopefully it's fine
Of course I couldn't tell the nurses I did something stupid like that. I don't think it would have mattered if I did. I won't open up by bandages anymore but I couldn't help it, I'm like a child, I had to see... Hopefully it's still fine.
Then again, one of the nurses dragged the end of the catheter from underneath me and along the mattress before attaching the drip without sterilizing anything and there seemed to be no problem from that so I hope it's fine...

[Julieb1]

It will look rough for a mth or so mine was very swollen even at 2mths but its ok now yes I suppose gapping hole is about right remember it takes time for it to fully heal and start looking ok.

try not to poke around you could damage something I could also feel the packing inside thats normal.

Julie x

[Zumbagirl]

I just remember that for me it was all sort of nasty looking for those first couple of weeks. I called it frankenpu**y for about the first month or so. I do remember getting yelled at for not taking pain medication. I didn't think my pain tolerance was any more or less than anyone else, but I had to be talked into taking pain pills by Dr Brassard. Anyways, the swelling for me lasted a good 6-12 months after surgery. I would say most of the swelling was gone after 6 months or so.

I will say one thing about SRS. It's a surgery that occurs on a part of the body that let's face it, it's not something we can fold ourselves up and look at it easily. There is a certain amount of faith we have to put in the healing process that everything will end up where it should be.

[GendrKweer]

Mine was really swollen for months afterwards, so be patient.... easier said than done, I know! The pain also took months to go away fully, at least for me. Walking long distances was only totally painless six months after. But I will say, in case you smoke, QUIT, because smoking is the one guaranteed thing that will slow or even prevent healing (because it constricts capillaries and blood flow in general).

[Athena]

Take some time to relax. You just had a major surgery and honestly if the medical staff isn't worried then I wouldn't either. As for a different doctor in the room at the time you went under, even the best surgeons don't do all the work so it is very likely that he came in after you were under.

As for the nurses question of why did you go to them, if foreigners don't usually go there then people around the world don't get to hear exactly how good he is so it is even less likely that people will choose him.

As for the 3" depth from what I understand that is what dilation is for.

Right now you are under a lot of stress you just had a major surgery your body is just starting it's recovery and you are under pain medications. Try to relax, let the healing process do it's thing.