When I joined this site a few weeks back I was aware of my gender situation for many, many years. Since joining the site and reading more and more posts than I did while I lurked, I have noticed a few things that were unexpected. So, I guess what I am saying is, are the following occurrences related to joining the site/completely accepting being at peace with my identity finally?
This is a list of things I have noticed.
1. I have read many stories that speak the same words I could see myself writing or have written about.
2. My fears of facing who I am have diminished.
3. My desire to transition or at least seek therapy for professional assistance to figure out what I will do in the future has increased dramatically. Want to start now/obsessing about it.
4. Although I don't recall EVER once dreaming in my sleep from a male perspective in my life, my dreams have gone crazy relating to my newly accepted identity.
In the last few weeks I have dreamt of getting a gel nail manicure, buying heaps of cosmetics, putting on mascara, eyeshadow, and seeing myself with boobs, pierced ears and dresses/lingerie, and long hair, but still scared in my dreams I would be "found out."
I adore wearing makeup and the ritual of putting it on, have never had a mani in my life, and not sure if I ever will, and although I have secretly desired boobs for as long as I can recall, I have never seen myself with breasts in my dreams before.
Anyone else have similar experiences upon acceptance, joining this site???
Amelia
