I can't decide if I want T

[kittylover]

I keep going back and forth in my head-
I probably need T to pass
maybe if I try hard enough I can pass without it
I'm not getting T just to look the way society thinks a man should
well actually maybe it would be worth it so people see me as I am
maybe I'd like  looking a little more manly anyway
no i'm happy looking like this
how do I make up my mind?

[Athena]

Are you happy with yourself the way you are ? If so then don't start T.

[Mitchell the Deathbell]

I like to look at it like this:
If you only want T (or surgery) just to pass, maybe it isn't such a good idea. I honestly would like to one day get on T to feel better as myself and feel whole, I'm really trying not to make life changing decisions just to appear as a man to others. Am I doing this for myself or am I doing this for other people? For myself.
Best of wishes with your decisions.