Can not being on T cause you to be more depressed? I don't get it. I was fine before. I was setting goals and working towards accomplishing them. Then my doctor took me off the T due to a blood test and told me I had to see my regular doctor to redo the test. It turned out what was wrong had nothing to do with testosterone, and my doctor wants me to start seeing a real endo. My appointment is next week, but due to a scheduling conflict, I might have to change it. Now it seems like my whole world has just come to a crashing halt, and am walking around in a deep depressing fog. I've nearly stopped talking to everyone. I have no interest in anything, and I am really irritable. The funny thing is, I don't feel depressed about anything gender related. It's everything else. I can pinpoint the things that are bringing me down even though if someone asks i tell them I don't know what's wrong, and I try to avoid them. I even sort of have an idea of how to fix at least some of it. It's actually getting motivated that's the hard part. And I can't seem to talk to anyone about the things that are bothering me. I've tried, but then this idea that no one really cares pops into my mind, and I chicken out. Even as I type this (and I've tried several time before) I want to delete it. I have a coworker who expresses real concern, and he tries to talk to me. Today, I almost told him about some of it, but I backed out, just telling him it was a lot of little things. I've always had this issue where I felt I couldn't talk to people about things that were bothering me. Maybe some of it comes from my social anxiety. I came to the conclusion a while ago that not being on T might have something do do with my depression, but I have not told any doctors. When one of the docs prescribing my T asked how I felt off it, I just told her I felt a little irritable and she laughed a bit like she expected that.
