I am curious how many people have pulled into this concept, this is something I originally developed after reading an Ativan post about finding gender by silencing everything around you and looking deep within yourself.
I started looking at gender as triune, physical, social and spiritual or deep core, the core being who I am deep within, that place so far inside that it looks at all around it and recognizes layers of gender, of identification, social pressures, stuff like that.
The core is also deep values, the soul, the heart, the motives. it is the truth seeker and teller, the place that knows the truth of who I am and watches everything around me comparing it to that truth.
Lately, just before I had my full acceptance moment that I am still processing in that core, Lately I had an experience where the components of self quietly decided to melt into my core and instead of separation it became merged into the wholeness, the diamond heart of me, if that is not to presumptuous, but I believe it nonetheless.
So, how about you. Do you believe you have a core gender, a place that transends presentations, dressing and comfort zones, a deep place inside you that sees your totality as who you are, that you can rely on and pull back to when the going is tough, that is rock stable and knows your truth?
How did you find your core?
Did you find one? Do you believe you have one?
Can you describe your core here? Mine used to be non gendered, observing, somewhat distanced, now it is passionate, still observing but fully involved, and it is transgendered. Not male, not female, many faceted, a nonbinary transgendered mtf with multiple presentations and social capabilities and realities. All real, that is nonbinary.
But can you describe your core? Has it changed? Are you looking for it?
I think I found something profoundly real, that pierces deception and presentation and dysphoria and finds something far more powerful, far more reaching than lipstick and boobs and no boobs and binders and other things we use. Far more than externals, far more powerful, a driving force of trans in our lives, each totally unique and personal, each composed of our totality and life experience, each more valuable than can be calculated. A trans reality, a foundation where we can build presentation and social balance and physical joy from. A diamond.
Thoughts about core genders my dear ones?
We'll probably get some mtf and ftm involvement on this one, lets all be respectful regardless of what your core or presentations may be or if you are nb or not nb. No criticizing others here please. Don't let it scare you off thread either. The core is not a nonbinary thing only, we all have our core. It is who we are. But it is key to my nonbinary experience, a non binary born concept, arguably.
Love to all
Blessings from Satinjoy