To be honest dear friends I haven't been doing well these last few weeks. Had a nasty bout of self-doubt & hatred* a few weeks ago. It made it very hard to feel like I deserved to be happy, let alone even considering that I could be happy in the future.
Currently (today-wise) I am trying not let it kick my butt. So I have a nice cup of hot strong black coffee and I am working on my resume for a possible second job. Hopefully things will just be okay today. If not, at least I made an effort, right?
*My self-doubt and hatred stem from a host of issues tied into my life. For the record, I haven't transitioned yet. I want to heal myself before I can start that journey.