Did HRT become a validation of who you are?

[Jen72]

First of just happen to be on the big wait till I can start yay!
Yes have referral in the works etc.

The question I have though is after so many years of denial/repression of this I guess I feel that the
HRT will make or break me so to speak a final yup this is who I am thing. Yet not sure if its the all magical pill either. I guess its all wait and see experiment. Patience and try to divert on thinking about it too much might be a good idea which might be hard but...

Of course I have a long wait but just asking if anyone else felt not totally sure and that HRT would be a validation to themselves?

[MelissaAnn]

Hi Jen, for what it's worth, I don't think HRT is a magic pill in the sense of validating myself. I believe that comes from within at your core. I believe you need to evaluate who you are to know who you are. With that being said, after starting HRT. I knew it was right. I knew almost right away after starting that this was the right path for me. I don't know if this answers your question are not. But just how I feel. I wish you nothing but the best of luck on your journey in May the Angels look down upon you and guide you on your path.

Hugs,

Melissa Ann

[suzifrommd]

Of course I have a long wait but just asking if anyone else felt not totally sure and that HRT would be a validation to themselves?

I wasn't sure. Didn't expect HRT to be a validation. Actually, didn't expect much of anything except breasts.

For the first four months, just nipple soreness and noticing smells more, so no validation there. Oh, and full-body orgasms. OK, maybe a teensy bit of validation.

After I'd been on for a year, that's when I noticed that my personality had changed. I was far more loving, and far more accepting. It was much more like the person I wanted to be, and that helped a bit.

[eliza2014]

Validation - I suppose to an extent. Once I started recognizing what I was going through and having a proper diagnosis enumerated by multiple people was probably the best validation. I would say starting HRT was more a confirmation of everything and as was said earlier it now feels right. I agree that HRT is not a magic pill, but it sure helps!

[Jen72]

Thank you all and yes that's what I was looking for I guess conformation a better word then validation.

And yes I realize its more about your soul then the hormones themselves. Time will tell and I am guessing HRT will let me know if it feels right or wrong then its the guiding sign as to which path I will continue on. Honestly I think its just starting to sink in to the fact I might become really me but have doubts at the moment.

[KayXo]

One day at a time, one step at a time...

[AnonyMs]

Not sure about validation, but conformation, yes.

The only time I feel normal is on HRT, and at that point its easy to think that maybe I don't really need this? But just wait until you stop, that's really confirming. I've started and stopped a few times and discovered I can't live without it. That's definitely not normal, and its good to know it.

[Apples Mk.II]

Not sure. I started taking it the day I mentally validated myself as female. Validation first, hormones later.


The only validation-like I got from HRT is when I ended crying for 15 minutes with a really sad episode of a series. And another 10 in the shower. I expected one of those images with smeared mascared and eyeliner running through my face, but it's too bad I always use waterproof makeup.

[Erica_Y]

Hi

I would say that if you are using the word validation in the context of female or male gender then I would say no. Almost all seem to know their gender before hand including myself. As far as confirmation goes I would say yes and here is why in a simple example. It is a guy example I know however it is appropriate, gets the point across and most people can relate to the analogy.

You have two types of fuel for your car gas (petrol) and diesel.  If I put diesel in my gas car what happens?

It runs terrible, cantankerous, miss-fires, spits, is angry, upset and basically runs terrible. If I put gas back in what happens?

It smooths out and purrs like a kitten! Having the correct hormones allowed me and my body to run as it was intended to run and when you feel the difference you KNOW BIG TIME and it becomes clear. That is in effect what happened to me so it definitely confirmed I was doing what I needed to do!

Sorry for the guy analogy and I have scheduled myself for 1000 lashes but it works

All the best , good luck with your journey and I hope this helps some.

[Jen72]

First off don't be sorry about mechanic analogy its a perfect one really:) Basically I used the wrong word darn English a funny language and yes confirmation is a much better idea I was looking for.

At the moment for me its like its finally hit that I could be given the chance to be female and scares the crap out of me but also feel its something I need to try as well. Mostly the fear of transition and the learning of things and sometimes I feel its like why the heck did I open this Pandora's box. I know its a one foot in front of the other yet its also good to have an idea what lays ahead but tempered with patience.

I will get there one day and this site has so many helpful, wonderful and insightful people just good to ask things:)

[Rachel]

I knew HRT was 100% right for me 3 days after starting and I knew I was never going off HRT after 2 months. My therapist said for me to give it 4 months. I told her at the two month mark. She knew it soon after I started seeing her and deep down inside I did too.

If it is right for you will know.

[emilyking]

In my case, I was expecting all these things I read about, but after six months of nothing but breast growth I had to start digging.
So all my changes happened as I grew up, I just had no idea I was a intersexual (PAIS).