Thank you Evadenzin. From your English I had you either in Pakistan or India
Your situation is not easy, given the state of gender knowledge and equality in your country, and I guess you already know that there are no easy answers, and probably no support groups that mean anything. But, as I say, you appear to be diligent, hard working and intellectually capable, so this is a big help.
Some ideas that you might want to consider:
I read a long article recently about a powerful underground gay community in Pakistan. I know you're not gay, but gays too suffer discrimination where you are. If you were to find a sympathetic and powerful man to assist you, sponsor you, or in some other way assist, this could be one step.
The other might be to look for international scholarships to universities in the UK and USA if you haven't already tried this. Some will actively help people from disadvantaged situations, but who show academic capability.
A third option is quite extreme, and you'd need to research it very carefully, and that would be to visit a country (commonwealth would be good
), and claim asylum on the grounds of persecution. I'm not a lawyer, so please be very careful with this.
I think you are VERY brave, and I have huge admiration for your tenacity. Please feel free to discuss this with me if you wish, outside the forum if you need to.
Regards
Julia