Gender dysphoria is annoying x____x. I really wish I could be either happy as a man, or as a woman. Thing is, the feelings lay in between and even although I start with hormones in two weeks and live as a woman I have those days where I think by myself.. couldn't it all just be easier, can't I just accept myself for how I was born?
I used to practice photography with self-portraits and also got a few good pictures of when I clearly was presenting as a male. I think those pictures look very good, I look good on it, but it just.. doesn't suit me. I rather stand out as a tall woman or transgender and go trough struggles, than to look 'normal' but feel as if I always have to pretend.
That's the thing with dysphoria. Everyone else might consider seeing you like any other person (till maybe when they hear you are transgender) while you also still see the old you, and that will not quickly or even ever disappear.
Ramble, rambling x_x.
Just do what feels best, instead of what looks best. I think everyone has a stage where you look in the mirror and ask yourself; 'what the <not allowed> am I doing..?' but you will get trough that and see eventually it is for the better.
