In between is getting harder.. and little update

[carrie359]

Hey girls,


Well I just bought some new clothes on ebay.. I love affliction stuff from the Buckle.. love it..
Anyway, I bought women's long sleeve cool stuff and I wear jeans and tennis shoes most the time.. Jeans from the Buckle for sure. 
So, yesterday I got may I help you mam then later a thank you mam at a different store.  Of course then they realize they made a mistake.. or so they think and apologize all over themselves.
Today, I was on the phone with my son and walking into best buy and the greeter said good evening Mam. Then the computer guy did a solid sir..
Ugh, I sure love it when the mam comes but when the sir comes I just want to scream.
Also walking down a long hallway at a movie theater with a bunch of people sitting on the ground I noticed some guy looks.. older me going out of their way to look.. I am sure from a distance I totally am confusing..
My sister and sister in law both said the other day its like seeing my mom all over again.
That makes me feel good .. I loved her and she is gone. I lost both parents at a young age.
So, I am trying to relax and enjoy the ride but I am ready to get to the full time life. 
Plan is set now. go to FFS consult this month in Boston, hopefully surgery in January.. full time about mid February.
I am looking forward to the holidays hope you all have a great week,
Carrie

[mrs izzy]

Everything takes time for things to fully settle out.

Relax, breathe and walk with confidence and soon the proper pronouns will come with ease.

[sam79]

Hey Carrie.

Oh I remember that feeling and the constant awkwardness in that place between. Maybe just appreciate that it won't last much longer.

I actually never made it to my planned full time date. The moment that I realised that being in limbo was harder than just doing my best presenting as the woman I am - even if I didn't pass all the time - it was all over and that was that

xx

[carrie359]

Thanks Sammyrose and Mrs Izzy,
My therapist tells me to just enjoy the ride.. so I try to relax.  I really never dreamed I would be where I am today after just over 10 months of hrt.
My hair is so long now I can't keep it out of my eyes.. yea!! and really need to do a pony tail.  Another two months I will be in real trouble with my hair length.. the kind of trouble I like ..
I do kind of enjoy certain aspects of in between.. It makes going out and about a bit of a rush. 
Anyway thanks so much for replying to my post girls.
Carrie

[aylaliara]

Agreed with the others. If anything, revel in the fact that you're right on the cusp of pulling everything off. If the sir/mam balance is 50/50 then you can tip the scales that extra 1% in no time.

[carrie359]

Hi Aylaliara,
Good point.. love that I can even get mam'd.. seems to be happening so often now I almost expect it.  Sometimes I am just like wow.. amazing..
I will post pics one day that  of my before and after.. freaks me out totally. Will do after FFS and hair extensions. 
Carrie