Hey girls,


Well I just bought some new clothes on ebay.. I love affliction stuff from the Buckle.. love it..
Anyway, I bought women's long sleeve cool stuff and I wear jeans and tennis shoes most the time.. Jeans from the Buckle for sure. 
So, yesterday I got may I help you mam then later a thank you mam at a different store.  Of course then they realize they made a mistake.. or so they think and apologize all over themselves.
Today, I was on the phone with my son and walking into best buy and the greeter said good evening Mam. Then the computer guy did a solid sir..
Ugh, I sure love it when the mam comes but when the sir comes I just want to scream.
Also walking down a long hallway at a movie theater with a bunch of people sitting on the ground I noticed some guy looks.. older me going out of their way to look.. I am sure from a distance I totally am confusing..
My sister and sister in law both said the other day its like seeing my mom all over again.
That makes me feel good .. I loved her and she is gone. I lost both parents at a young age.
So, I am trying to relax and enjoy the ride but I am ready to get to the full time life. 
Plan is set now. go to FFS consult this month in Boston, hopefully surgery in January.. full time about mid February.
I am looking forward to the holidays hope you all have a great week,
Carrie

Everything takes time for things to fully settle out.

Relax, breathe and walk with confidence and soon the proper pronouns will come with ease.

Hey Carrie.

Oh I remember that feeling and the constant awkwardness in that place between. Maybe just appreciate that it won't last much longer.

I actually never made it to my planned full time date. The moment that I realised that being in limbo was harder than just doing my best presenting as the woman I am - even if I didn't pass all the time - it was all over and that was that

xx

Thanks Sammyrose and Mrs Izzy,
My therapist tells me to just enjoy the ride.. so I try to relax.  I really never dreamed I would be where I am today after just over 10 months of hrt.
My hair is so long now I can't keep it out of my eyes.. yea!! and really need to do a pony tail.  Another two months I will be in real trouble with my hair length.. the kind of trouble I like ..
I do kind of enjoy certain aspects of in between.. It makes going out and about a bit of a rush. 
Anyway thanks so much for replying to my post girls.
Carrie

Agreed with the others. If anything, revel in the fact that you're right on the cusp of pulling everything off. If the sir/mam balance is 50/50 then you can tip the scales that extra 1% in no time.

Hi Aylaliara,
Good point.. love that I can even get mam'd.. seems to be happening so often now I almost expect it.  Sometimes I am just like wow.. amazing..
I will post pics one day that  of my before and after.. freaks me out totally. Will do after FFS and hair extensions. 
Carrie