hearing my name
having to say my name
seeing the veins on my arms
feeling/seeing my Adams apple.
morning wood
feeling it "move" down there
seeing hair around my breasts
shaving every morning
being referred to as "one of the guys"
seeing beautiful young girls/women
crossdressing (have to do it, but OMG that's a man in a wig *crying*

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Not allowed hearing girl type of gossip among girls
My thich brimmed glasses
the rough skin over my knuckles
the thought of growing old, balding etc.
effeminate guys (the thing I am hiding myself)
Guys wanting to touch or yet worse suck.... "it".
The word dick, cock etc.
Men's undergarments
The fly on men's trousers
The obligatory nodd after getting a men's haircut when looking in the mirror saying "yeah, that's fine" to the hairdresser
My stiff body, not moving gracefully