I understand taking offense... but there is definitely a certain fashion sense that is seen within the queer community as dyke fashion. And there are people here who previously identified as dyke or butch. I have always been taken for a (femme) lesbian, so for me one of my accomplishments this year was actually to look more butch/dykish. Not as a slur, bit as an identity-related aesthetic and legitimate form of gender-related self-expression.
But anyway. This year, I:
- Cut my hair off and began maintaining a short style even when criticised by my family. This was absolutely huge for me because my grandmother who is abusive and controlling has had a huge interest in and control over my hair for my entire life. I moved out of her house over five years ago, but still have a hard time breaking her rules sometimes.
- Came out to myself, my partner, some friends and family, and my new workplace as a trans male.
- Bought new clothes that I like without feeling guilty or buying a set of more feminine clothes to appease my family.
- Moved into a house with roommates for the first time,and ask now living for the first time ever in a home where I don't feel like I am being constantly judged.
- Spent a lot of time alone with myself, processing, for the first time in many years. Started writing again.
- Bought my first binder and started using it semi-regularly.
- Saw a gender therapist for a single session, and attended several sessions of a support group while I was briefly living in Seattle.
- Met several new trans friends, who have been a source of great joy, love, hope, and validation for me, and for whom I hope my friendship has done the same.
- Decided that I can and will walk away from my family if and when I so choose, whether I am totally financially independent or not, for my own safety and sanity.