So Sat (22/11) was my sister's wedding that I has seen me stressed and a tad obsessive about lately, especially as nobody but my mother (unsupportive) or my sister (not invited) knows I'm trans. So I had to be stealth I was not looking forward to the day.
Good: Person sitting next to me looks at my name card. "So you would be <sister's>...?" *me* "<sister> is my sister" (I'm sorry if I was being mean but it was a long day and I was tired, he never did call me her brother
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Good: Same person "So <sister> is your older sister." I am a few months older so. "For the honor of hormones"
Good: Staff not gendering me at all when asking me for a drink when they came to my table
Bad: The look on my mother's face when she saw what I was wearing.
Bad: Having to listen to my aunt discuss her views to her mother about my sister and mother who she invited and didn't. Who isn't coming and why and pretend that everything is right with our nuclear family. Then watch her be all smiles for mum in public. It just makes telling them harder for me I know I have to but still. ...
Ugly: This I was warned about l was trapped in a corner by my uncle facing a lovely question session with him trying to understand me. "Your wearing a pink shirt" crime against fashion please, but I wasn't going to wear white or black (I'm not staff) nor purple (her wedding theme). There wasn't much out there in female shirts that I could wear. "Your rose coloured glasses" I have to wear them I can't see without them they are not a fashion statement. Maybe you should of been looking at the frames themselves and what is inside the shirt. "You shaved your arms" epileptic I learned the lesson that if you have a run of seizures, your arm can look like a mummies fast. Not fun taking it off, the fact that it helped ease dysphoria was a bonus. Three or four times he asked your gay admit it. Three or four times me saying no until my cousin rescued me
Ugly: While I was helping mum edit her speech in a quiet room later I was using the glass as mirrors and pacing to think I got to admire my developing body, (looks like someone is getting hips yay). That uncle kept popping in to talk to us forcing me to hide behind the couch whenever he came in.
Ugly: Today my other sister is still not supposed to know the wedding was yesterday mum was upset that she saw pictures of the wedding. She is Facebook friends with two of the bridesmaids, of course she would know. My family can be huey duewy and screwy.
Oh and thank you to two special members on here who sent me a virtual hug in the morning and a offer to rant and rave at them if needed during the day
