I finally got my HRT, last Friday. I don't know if there's supposed to be anything noticeable within a week,
as far as emotionally or mentally, but there haven't been any adverse effects. I suppose I feel less rage-y
when someone here (at home) is being annoying, and that's a very good thing. My hands appear to have
a shine that I never noticed before.
I wonder what unexpected changes some of you had; things you wouldn't have really thought of like the
way you hear and appreciate music, what responsibilities start seeming more important, having a taste
for foods that you may have once disliked. I've always had a femininity to my personality and perspectives
so I can't imagine things like that would somehow intensify. If anything, I'll feel less worried about my
gender presentation.
You really notice just how much NOT A GUY you are when there are three of them in the living room being
loud and obnoxious while drinking beer.
My friend Ricky asked me if he could still use my legal name until HE CAN SEE changes. He knows it's for his
own comfort, and that it still affects me whether I look like a girl or not, but he's just having a hard time.
That's understandable. He said something like "I can't see into your brain so I can't really get it".
I don't think it's really possible to notice significant differences between a male brain and a female brain. I
don't think a cis man could do a Freaky Friday with a woman and think, "so this is the female brain
experience!" Yeah, he might notice emotional and hormonal differences, and his calculating mind would
possibly be transmuted to more abstract thinking, but not some 'eureka' moment like switching between
hot and cold.
Identity isn't something you can quantify or pinpoint via special genetic markers. I think if you switched
bodies with the opposite sex you'd feel just like yourself, essentially; the only differences being experiential,
not related to identity.
Any thoughts?
