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UPDATE 1 month 1 week post op.
**So sorry for the delay. I don't intend to keep anybody waiting. I do appreciate all the love and concerns. If you read below you will understand.
Let's recap shall we.
July 13
On this day I was to go for my final check up with the doctor. I have a slit at the lower labia mijora(or whatev) where the stitches have came. The doctor restitched me up. He numb me there, which hurt like hell. But he done everything right in his office under local anesthesia. ..include cut some tissues off! Weird right!! Yuck. After he finished I said my goodbyes as I'll be leaving on the 15th.
July 14
the day before leaving was a mess.. I had to pack.. so I really couldn't stand for much to do anything..but it finally got done. I've seen a few big roaches here..which scared me. The other woman that had surgery here as well, never seen a roach in her room! Maybe it's because I'm by the pool.. who knows. She has really been helpful.. and a really nice person. She let me use her tablet to pass time . As my phone was stolen during the surgical procedure. I decided all the food I had bought will go to her. I didn't want it to go to waste. Late that night I went to.her room to say my goodbyes... I did cry! Haha .
July 15
leaving daaaaaaayyy yayy. The driver came around 3 a.m as it took about 45 min to get to.the airport. She was so sweet. I loved her. Awesome woman..and very pretty too. She came with me and showed me the line that I'm to get to get my ticket. Although wrong line. It's the thought that counts. Standing was a mess.. just throbbing all down there at this point. I left guadalajara around 6 and made it around 12 back home. Sitting was very uncomfortable... and it seemed as if I was always in between 2 people on the plane!!! Make sure you set your seats when booking flight !!!
July 15-July 25
Settling in back home was not really fun. I actually didn't know where to start. Things down there still looked good. However I noticed when dilating the stitched area that the doctor fixed, would look like it was coming open again. I tried to just relax and take it easy. Even though I did, the stitches came.back open. I contacted the doctor about it and he said we will need
for.it to.heal on its own and informed me to get SUFREXAL (KETANSERINE). This is only sold in Mexico tho. Which sucks. For the next few days I dilate as normal. 2 times a day . One in the morn and one at night.. with number 2 dilater. On a suppose pay day for me.. I did not get paid. The medical documents were not sent to my company for.them to pay me. I was in a whirlwind as I had so much to do and bills to pay!! Long story short.. car stopped..loan needed to be paid.. was to start back work on the 20th, no gas money. My account was in the - horrible. I reached out to Christina and demanded that something be done immediately. As the days go on, things were slowly being resolved. I started back to work and was there for three days before the doctor put me back on leave. I could not sit at my desk without hurting and throbbing there. For me, it's not a cruciating pain.. just an annoyance uncomfortable pain. He put me back.on leave for 2 weeks..my short term was finally approved, but I'd still have to.wait for my money to get to me.
July 26 **the night of hell and heaven**
11:pm during normal dilation I've noticed blood. An excessive amount. Actually I never bled from.vaginal at all much until this. I didn't know what the blood was from and sort have assumed it was from the open stitched wound. It was enough to shock me but not enough to cause concern. I just cleaned up and padded up. I went to sleep after this.
3:am I woke up feeling a feeling of wetness. I turned on the light and blood was everywhere. A scary amount. The pad was soaked. I never seen a pad so.soaked. the covers and my panties and all..filled with blood. I took my handheld mirror and looked at my vagina, and blood was coming from somewhere! I was so scared! I didn't know what to do. I ran into the shower and got under some water to see if it would stop the bleeding as I hold pressure. No! It would not stop. I had a speculation that it was coming from inside my vagina. The tub had bloody water filled in it. After attempting to stop the blood that way, I try to go elevate my legs while laying on my back. I applied pressure but the blood just kept coming. The fear of Going to the e.r and dying because I'll be discriminated against was there. I didn't know what to do.. let alone a doctor that has no clue what to do about a new vagina.
4:am I decided if I did pass out or die, I need to be around someone. I drove to my mother's house where she was up. She seen I was bleeding and put me in the tub and rinse my body. She did an amazing job. She was my angel. She didn't freak out to make me more freaked out. Just near nurturing.
6:am the blood is still coming out of me. My vagina is now creating blood clots.. Half of the side of a banana and the width of 3 fingers. It's making my vagina feel so.tight inside. So big out the outside. It's so gross. I try to dig some of it out of me as it was way to uncomfortable . It ended up coming out of me . I was still bleeding so I my mom.gave me pad and change of clothes and I went to lay down
7a.m I needed to contact the doctor but couldn't as I didn't have a phone. And my mom had not paid her bill as of yet. I had no way of findING out what to do. At this time I woke back up as the pad was soaked and my shirts were stained. I went and used the bathroom and another blood clot slipped out as I pushed to pee. I was so worried. That everything had failed. As If I failed myself. I continued to change clothes. And go lay back down. At this time my mom ran out to pay her bill so I can contact christina. *the reason I didn't have a phone was due to the fact, my phone was stolen in Mexico as well as no money due to medical documents not being sent to my company"
9:a.m still bleeding. I lay there soaked.. and I get up again.. this time I'm just over it. im still bleeding and in just back in the tub..where the final blood clot came out of me. As if I had a miscarriage or baby. I feel different.. don't feel so well. As I was getting out the shower I began to feel faint.. and weak. My ears were getting out and my body was feeling numb. I was trying to walk to my bed to lay down.. end up falling to the floor all I could do is pray. My mom was not there. I was alone. I ended up praying. Then something told me to get back on the bed..which I used all my strength for, and elevate my legs and apply pressure to the site. In this position for 2 hours, the bleeding stopped. My skin color changed and my lips were white. I was so pale.
12:pm reached out to christina. Dr Ivan said it was most likely due to rough dilation and that I need to go to the e.r (which terrified me for the obvious) he said that they would either see if I broke a blood vessel or just massive bleeding due to dilation. I will be honest...I did not go. I don't suggest this, but for me.. and where I live. I was fearful. I did stop bleeding tho.. and allowed myself to rest as at this time I was anemic.
A few days went by and I started feeling better. I began to dilate again when I felt like my body was okay to do so.
I spent the whole week at my mom's just in case. Now I'm back at my home. No bleeding..no problems.. I feel normal.
**random junk** looking from the back with a mirror is nice. Sensation.. I feel throbbing in the clip area.. idk if this is it or what haha.. but sometimes it feels good. When I touch the clip I don't feel to much unless I kinda apply light pressure.. which I'm scared to continually do. In the vagina.. I feel something sometimes.. like tinglea.. I is a pleasant feeling.. but not often feeling. My vagina looks better in real life than on a picture. My mom did say it looks like a vagina.. just swollen. So plus there. I've been horn but can't do anything about it.. so I just hold off. It feels nice to be able to wear panties.. and to.wear stretchy workout pants without tucking.
Until later..
love
