Technically, today is the 1 year anniversary of my first ever coming out, or maybe last night...but close enough either way! And according to my ticker I've been on HRT exactly six months. I haven't posted a thread in awhile, and this seemed like a good excuse to make one, so here it goes. First off, the amount of progress I've made in the last year has blown my mind. I've done things that a year ago I would have thought impossible or at best a distant dream. The support I've gotten since coming out has been overwhelmingly positive, and it's made a huge difference in the steps I've taken. I really couldn't ask for better friends and family, and the support, posts, ideas and suggests from you all here has been extremely helpful as well.
If you would have told me a year ago I'd have had the courage to present female full time ever, let alone after only three months of HRT, I'd have called you crazy. At one point I had consented to take this secret to my grade, to protect myself and everyone I cared about, and it turns out it wasn't something I needed to protect them from after all. It's been an amazing year, I'd managed to tell all of my old friends about me and even make some new ones after transitioning. I guess the worst thing to happen this year actually happened in the past week when I broke up with my girl friend of eight years. It was at least part related to my eventual SRS but there were other problems too, just the straw that broke the camels back I guess. She was very accepting of my early transitioning but often got very defensive and quick to lash out if I pushed talking to her about my surgery and how she would feel about. She said she "okay" with it and just "would have to get used to it," but body language and actions said that she was just too scared to leave the only person she had ever really been with. It was hard on us both, but I hope will give us both a chance to find what we really want in a relationship.
So, now I guess I have to deal with the dating scene, kind of scared, never done any adult dating since my last relationship started when I was 14 and ended a week ago. >_< But hopefully I will be able to navigate it or at least not stumble around too much. I graduate next semester with my BA in psychology and am likely moving out to Texas to room with a friend. Crazy stuff. Anyways, a bit of a longer post for me, but I thought the occasion warranted it. Hearing people's life stories, that they were actually able to to move forward with their transition was always reassuring to me, so maybe my story will help someone else in some little way. The unknown can be scary, but don't let it keep you from what you want. Thanks for being there all you Susanites (Do we have a name for us here on susan's place...) keep up all that support and love for our wonderful community. ^_^
