My heart goes out to you, Miranda.
Transition is addictive in a manner of speaking (to me). Transition has taught me, more than ever, than setting goals then working towards them actually produces results. So I've begun to set post-transition goals. I always wanted to travel and never did. Now I will. I've always wanted to live on the west coast. Now I am making plans to relocate that direction.
That's the lesson transition taught me - if I want something, go after it. Don't wait for things to change the way you wish; make them happen.
There's a saying - "The best way to predict the future is to create it." I am finding this to be very true.