I'm not sure whether to wonder why this happened, kick myself, of just chalk it up to suprise and let it go. I think I'll do them all, all at once. I had to do some grocery shopping tonight and decided I would spend some extra time on make up, new jeans, lipstick, new top... well you get the picture. Why? Well I am very rural so I suppose a trip to the big city (joking) was cause enough. Standing in the checkout line in front of me was this well dressed but in a young stylish way, very pretty woman. She turned and started a conversation with me about small stuff saying how good diets were(I had many healthy choice diet dinners), and revealing a fair amount in such a short time I might add, then turned back to the cashier. I commented on how nice her high top black boots were and the conversation resumed with even more liveliness. Her time to pay. Once she had paid, she turned back to me with that smile I remember oh so well and said " I sure hope your not having those for Christmas dinner arrrre you? Me........no my girlfriend is making me dinner.




? What? Why?
She left, I paid, went to my truck and thought.....why did I say that? Now granted I do have a friend, she is a girl, and she is cooking for me but just not sure what night. I guess I dont know where I'm going with this, it's just that I have never been shy, bashful, hesitant or one to fumble with words, until NOW. So many weird things are cruising thru my mind, like: there are women out there attracted to men in makeup (I'm definately not passing)? If there are, what if that was my only shot. Have I quietly and sort of unknowingly gave up on the notion of finding a woman for me now that transition is my life?
Has anyone else gone through this? Please tell me there may be more like her, I really dont want to turn into a grocery store lurker hoping for one more chance or I may run into this guy

Dani