Hey again everyone!
So, I'll admit that I'm not the most active person on the forums, I read through the posts everyone makes semi-frequently, I always enjoy reading all of your posts about your transitions and various questions that pop up. While I don't share my opinion a lot, which has to do with a sour experience sharing my opinion when I first joined the site, I still like to share what has been going on in my life and transition. I usually stay pretty busy between work and my other affairs, you know, keeping up with friends and what not.
Currently, I'm still presenting in guy-mode 100% of the time despite being, what is it now... 8 months into my transition. A lot of this had to do with my facial hair, which due to a financial situation, I have not been able to get removed. Unfortunately, since I have lighter hair my only option is electrolysis, oddly this is the only option for hair removal in a 300 mile radius anyway. It's not really a big deal I have waited 27 years of my life to transition, I'm sure I can handle a few more months before I start electrolysis.
So, there is sort of a reason to why I'm not presenting at home either, call it a hostile home environment. Let me elaborate, I currently live with my mother due to the aforementioned financial reasons, but my brother recently came to stay with her as well. Unfortunately, my brother is not very tolerant person, so it has made a usual affair of dressing as normal gender a living hell. One would think that when he leaves for work that I could do it then, but of course he has been unemployed for 6 months, so that doesn't work so well. There isn't really a whole lot I can do about that, sigh.
Anyways, work has been normal business, no one has really said anything to me. Now, while I may present as male all the time, I'm still taking hormones on a daily basis and *cough* changes have begun to take root. My breast are approximately an A-cup at the moment, I don't really make any effort to hide them. Honestly, it's really not that visible anyways since I wear an undershirt (it's cold at work) over my T-shirt. One day I couldn't find my undershirt and I was in a hurry to get out the door, so my breasts were more noticeable at work, but no one really said anything. I did tell one of my co-workers that I was transitioning about 4 months ago, just because I get a little lonely sometimes and want someone to talk to. So far, that has been a blessing on my part as she is very understanding and overall an awesome person.
However, lately one of the co-workers that I know really well has gotten overly affectionate. It's not a bad thing, he usually just hugs me and tells me he loves me, I don't really care too much. I probably should mention that he is gay, but that is his personality, you just take it with a grain of salt. Although, today he brushed his hand against my breast twice, it was a little odd and out of character for him. I don't know if he has discovered my ruse, which wouldn't really surprise me, he does hug me frequently, or maybe he just thinks they are muscles, lol. Oh well, he didn't really say anything, so I guess I'll be playing this one by ear. I normally would have said something, but I really have no desire to out myself at the moment.
As far as the physical changes go, my muscles have definitely shrunk down and I no longer have that vein that pops out where my bicep meets my elbow, if that makes any sense. Oh boy, has lifting boxes for freight become a chore, there are some boxes that I just can no longer lift. I'm also starting to show a little cleavage in certain shirts, which is a huge plus in my opinion. While I believe it is related to muscle mass, I dropped from 175 -> 160, that's not bad for being 6 feet tall. What little chest hair I had has started to become a lot less noticeable. I've definitely become a lot more emotional, I recall about a month ago I just broke down crying for the most stupid reason. The only down side is that my nails chip really easily, which means they have an odd shape at the end. Additionally, I noticed that I'm coming home with bruises a lot more and I'm getting a lot more cuts from cardboard.
That's basically it, I just wanted to get all of that off my chest. It felt really good to write it even if no one reads my novel
~Vicki
