don't know where else to put this, but I hoping people read it.
So I called the trans life life:
http://www.translifeline.org/ because I was feeling suicidal and I was scared about future GAS because of my complicationswith my recent hysto and my fears about my hrt being dropped because of the colossal mix up that just happened to me; honestly I feel so much worse than before I called. Now I know this is run by volunteers and I appreciate that, but howdy I want to let others know and be aware of what that can entail.
The first time I was connected to someone the person hung up on me after I stuttered out that I wanted to talk to someone and was feeling suicidal. I figured it was a fluke and called back. This time after I told her my fears and was ready to engage in convo the person told me that of course it's hard bc GRS entails pain and people regret it because the results are gruesome(!!!) and yet it helps some people [if that makes sense]. They had quite the attitude towards me and didn't seem to be compassionate. I was stunned into silence, and this time I hung up in tears when they started to talk to me again.
Now I've definitely heard that this line can be great for people, and many ppl are happy with it, but since it's run by volunteers you may run into some people who don't quite know how to console others on all situations or they say things that will make you feel icky. Stay strong out there and keep trucking. You are worthy and great
