What Made You Both Happy and Unhappy at the Same Time Today? 2.0

[TyorTay?]

I'm learning to love myself. That's why my identity is important.

[AmyRose]

Happy this morning getting dressed to do some work at home in tights, dress and cosy cardigan with nice wig and looking at mirror and seeing my true self then unhappy that I don't get to be like this all the time.

[V M]

One of my neighbors got his electric wheelchair stuck in the snow while attempting to throw an empty box in the bin

Luckily I happened to see him and was able to go out and dislodge the chair and get him back inside

Dang!!! But those things are heavy 

[Mew]

I finally got riley to dance in public  however i got yelled at in the process 

[Devlyn]

One of my neighbors got his electric wheelchair stuck in the snow while attempting to throw an empty box in the bin

Luckily I happened to see him and was able to go out and dislodge the chair and get him back inside

Dang!!! But those things are heavy 

Nice work! 

Hugs, Devlyn

[V M]

Nice work! 

Hugs, Devlyn

Thank you 

One of my biggest fears is finding someone frozen stiff out there

[Tristyn]

Happy because...

1) My step mama told me she actually "respects" me as a human.

2) My pops wished me a happy birthday and told me he "loves" me (even though he still refers to me incorrectly, yet I had no compulsion to correct him after he actually told me he "loves" me).

3) My step mama also wished me happy birthday.


Unhappy because.....

1) None of my other family called to say "hi" to me of all days, seeing that today is my birthday. I guess its a lot of people's birthdays. So mine doesn't matter much....

2) My step mama says she "respects" me as a human being, but does not agree with what I do as far as my gender expression.


That's what I got so far for today...

[Lyndsey]

Hi All

I'm just so depressed tonight. I hate this cold and I'm moving out of a house that I have loved so much but my transition has made me want to leave here. It has been so hard for me to do this and leave were my children and grand kids are but I must do it for my sanity On the other hand it is kind of bitter sweet but my house is sold and I'm going to a warmer place.

Hug's
Lyndsey Marie

[Katiepie]

This one guy who really really likes me decided to stop by my workplace.
Made me smile and all, because I do know he does like me, and that he cares that much just to stop by to say hi, and to see how I was doing but not anything past that.

The thing though is that in my opinion he likes me for all the wrong reasons. He likes my more masculine traits, which I dislike about myself.

Kate <3

[V M]

Tearing apart an old Wurlitzer church organ that has never worked I bought at a thrift store several years ago so I can retrofit it with more modern equipment in order to centralize everything into a more compact music production station

It didn't have anything to do with the satisfaction of gutting something that I viewed as nemesis to my personal growth in younger years, I just kinda like the wooden console

Unhappy because I haven't got at it sooner and now I'm wearing myself out

[Cindy]

Tearing apart an old Wurlitzer church organ that has never worked I bought at a thrift store several years ago so I can retrofit it with more modern equipment in order to centralize everything into a more compact music production station

It didn't have anything to do with the satisfaction of gutting something that I viewed as nemesis to my personal growth in younger years, I just kinda like the wooden console

Unhappy because I haven't got at it sooner and now I'm wearing myself out

I am not going to make any comment about watching Virginia playing with her organ on our Skype call. I'm just not going there 

[Jenny07]

Went to the dentist today. Not a regular check up...
Horrible and painful.
My mouth is very sore at the moment......

At least it is fixed on the plus side but owl it hurts....

[Dee Marshall]

I've been making extra effort lately to look good at work, even though the clothes we have to wear are pretty androgynous. Yesterday at work as I was passing by cosmetics on my way to vitamins a rather intense customer stopped me and asked if we has Drew Barrymore's new cosmetics line. I told her I didn't work in that department and wasn't aware but hadn't seen it. She told me she had stopped me because my makeup was so lovely, her words. :-) A few moments later she tracked me down because she had found it. I hadn't connected the Flower line with Ms. Barrymore. In that ensuing conversation she called me "sir" then quickly corrected that to "miss". Now I'm pretty sure that she clocked me. :-( But she was so nice about it!

[FTMDiaries]

Learning that I no longer have the exact same number of Oscars as Leonardo Di Caprio.

[Dee Marshall]

Two days ago my bestie told me she put me forward for membership in a private Facebook women's group she belongs to. She showed me a screenshot of a picture she had taken of me with a description explaining who I am to her and saying I'm trans. I'm open so that didn't upset me. I got close to 300 likes from the members! She told me that I should get an invite soon based upon the response. Two days later, no invite and I'm beginning to wonder.

PS: I was turned down. Evidently I'm too androgynous. Another case of trans women being held to a higher standard than cis women. I'm not angry, just tired of this stuff.

[Sydney_NYC]

Happy:

#1) I've been doing really well going back to the gym this week and although I've only lost a pound, I feel thinner.

#2) I went to electrolysis for the first time in 5 weeks and she only had 40 min worth of hair to remove before I was all clear, so I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel for electrolysis.


Unhappy:

#1) On my way back from electrolysis, I tripped going up stairs to the subway platform and although I caught myself, I dropped my phone and cracked the very bottom of my screen on my phone. It the first time I've ever cracked a screen on my phone.

#2) Yesterday I had applied for an internet bank account through Bank of Internet and even though I have applied for 2 credit cards and one loan since I've changed my name without an issues, I got turned down because they thought my information was incomplete or could not be verified. Obviously I'll have to call to get clarification, but who thought it would be easier to open up a new credit card account than a bank account?

[Dee Marshall]

The deal I had with Sweetie was that I would dress androgynously around her for as long as I could stand it. Lately when I'm not with her I rarely get misgendered but with her I get misgendered about half the time. I can't take it anymore. I just told her that I have to start wearing makeup to cover my beard shadow all the time, even with her and sports bras won't do it anymore. She told me that she understands I have to take these steps  it the conversation left us both a bit sad.

[kk]

For the first time I was able to mentally picture myself as a man on T = Happy
I am not as hot as Aydian Dowling = Sad, haha

[Felix]

I finally asked for a county foster placement for my kid. I'll miss her a lot. I've based almost my whole identity on her for 17 years. We have stuff we do together that neither of us will ever find other partners for, like insect collecting or singing the stupid songs we make up.

I'm unhappy because I'm intentionally removing my only family from my life, but I'm happy because oh my gosh. She kicked me in the face yesterday when I leaned over to pick up stuff off her floor. She threatens to kill my cat. She is taller than me and only five pounds lighter. She punches and spits and bites and never remembers. She'll give me wounds and then have her feelings hurt when I'm cold to her an hour afterward. I can't handle it anymore.

She gets the police called on us all the time. And they think I'm her pimp because of course a young guy giving orders to a teenage girl is a pimp. Or they think I'm her brother. Even when I show my ID and her school ID they ask if I'm her real dad or her "street dad." I usually out myself to explain how young I look but half the time they have no idea what transgender even means.

I don't think my kid even understands that her actions affect other people. She's charismatic and knows all about pokemon but she's violent often and impulsive. She darts into traffic mindlessly and often eats things that aren't food. She has killed enough small animals by petting and hugging them (like Of Mice and Men) that she's just not allowed to hold them. And strangers in public always always always act like I'm being needlessly strict with how many things she isn't allowed to do. People chew me out every day, either because I'm giving my kid too many rules or because my kid is flipping out and they think I should discipline her better.

I can't win and I'm tired. I love my daughter but I'm tired of being banned from stores and having friends wanting nothing to do with us. I'm tired of the cops. I'm tired of the aches and pains from her messing up my joints and teeth and skin. I'm tired of how poisonous it is to have the only human who loves me hit me all the time.

So yeah it's horrible I'm giving up on her. But it's also joyful because I'm desperate for a break. I put in a request for 1 or 2 months and what I get depends on how ambitious the care provider is.

[V M]

I am so sorry to hear of this development Felix, I have often read your posts of the good and the bad times and the many struggles throughout the years and had hoped along with you for things to get better

Hugs