Hi Maribeth ,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in start talking and ask any question you like. You're quite safe here and we are very accepting.
Really the only person you need to tell about your feelings, is YOU. you are the one that's got to live with you. No one else, even if you're in relationship. Once you accept yourself, the rest is easy. What others think of you is immaterial. It's only their opinion. They're not living in your body, you are.
As for HT, you can speak to an Endocrinologist about low dose HT and see what your thoughts are on it, before you jump off the fence. (Well you'll be off the fence by then, moving forward)
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine