Hi all! I've been lurking here for a few months as a guest, and have decided it's time to introduce myself and become part of the group. I'm 51 and have known I was supposed to have been born a female since I was four. Unfortunately, when I told my mom she was not happy and pushed me toward boy things. My older sister allowed me to be her little sister though, clandestinely dressing me in her clothes and letting me play with her toys and dolls with her. I've cross-dressed in private ever since then but never had the nerve to go out en femme. Before I married my wife, rather than doing the smart thing and telling her the truth about myself I tried hard to convince myself I could get over those feelings and force myself to become the man I'm sure she wanted. We've been married fifteen years (second marriage), and we have two pre-teen daughters. Obviously, I wasn't able to "get over" my desire to be a woman, and over the past five years or so I've thought about it more and more. I don't want to destroy my marriage/family, but it's getting increasingly difficult to just gloss over the fact that my wife doesn't know the real me. Since I'm not the first person to have this dilemma I look forward to interacting with everyone to start to figure this all out.
Julie
