Quote from: suzifrommd on January 23, 2015, 06:40:08 AM
Well, it's your life, but I can't say enough good things about how wonderful it was to let go of my perfectionism. I don't want a guy who expects me to be perfect - I wouldn't be able to be myself around him.
If I must be serious a moment; to be perfectly honest, I was a tad flippant then. Yes, acceptance is incredibly important, and perfection is an impossible ideal like normalcy. But, I do want a guy who sees me as perfect the way I am, or perfect for him. If he does, then I will know he's blinded to my glaring flaws by love or blindness. I'm done with passionate yet abusive and mediocre yet passionless relationships. But I'd rather not open that box of unpleasantness in this thread.
So... let the silliness resume!

A few weeks ago, my older brother flew down from Washington for the holidays. On one of the days not reserved for my mom or dad/stepmom, he took me to lunch. To tell you a little about him, he's an intelligent and exceptionally funny man. He has a gift for orating that I can only come close to in writing, and constantly makes me laugh. We used to finish our meals at about the same time. However, after starting my transition I am eating much slower, careful to not overeat.
I don't even remember what we were talking about, but my lunch ended by me nearly choking to death. Convulsing with laughter, I allowed partially chewed bits of veggie burger to cascade onto the plate from my mouth. He paused, asked if I was ok and waited to make sure I could breathe. I tearily took a tentative breath, didn't choke again, then nodded. I have no idea how much my makeup got smeared, but my brother tilted his head a little, gestured vaguely toward my then demonstratively to his eyes and told me with a growing smile, "You got something..." I flipped him off, and proceeded to mop the smeared makeup off my face. He watched me a second, shrugged, and continued the story.
I didn't really get that embarrassed, since he was busy entertaining me. But I did eventually see my racoony reflection in the vanity mirror on the way back home. I hadn't been able to do a very effective cleanup at the table...