crossdressing and sexuality

[Owen]

HI Lara,
            Welcom to Susan's.  I have been in and out of womens cloths for years. I used to get  sexually arosed at first but as time marched on I became more aware about my feelings of wanting to be female. I browse through womens catalogs now more than I ever had. I can't offer up any thing more on this as I feel more like a TG than a CD at the moment. I'm still finding myself. I know SRS is a long way off for me. Money situation and lack of  a job right now. So putting on womens cloths for me is the only outlet to exppress my female side.

love being female
owen

[denise19433]

i have enjoyed wearing panties and bras since i was seven.My mom punished me by making me wear  a dress panties and knee his .
i loved it but didn't tell her.

[flower power]

Hi all,

Just wanted to thank everyone for all the insights in this thread. It's been a long time since I've posted here. Some because of being busy, some because of being unsure. It's reassuring to see so many people with the same ideas/feelings as I. I tend to get caught up in trying to figure out exactly where I fit along the TG spectrum, but I'm starting to realize that that is a mistake. I'm glad to see there's no right or wrong, just differences.

Love ya,

Flower

[stephanie_craxford]

I tend to get caught up in trying to figure out exactly where I fit along the TG spectrum, but I'm starting to realize that that is a mistake. I'm glad to see there's no right or wrong, just differences.

That's quite right there is no right or wrong answer, just differences.  There is no need for you to fit in anywhere.  You are where you are, and if you are comfortable with that then so be it.  Everyone has a different idea of what is right and wrong, the only one that counts is yours.

Steph

[Silky Smooth]

How my path began was crossdressing. It seemed inocent and was at 10 years old. But as I grew up it became an obsession. I allowed the pitch and yaw of my feeling dictate my actions for a while. I never shared this with anyone while growing up. My feelings were for females and I never considered males while growing up. But then I did. I analyzed my feelings and acknowledged my bisexuality. What a wonderfuly scary day.
    Now when I CD feel more complete since allowing this door to be opened. Granted it's not even 10% of the reason I dress, but it's still a part of it.
    Now I have acted on my sexuality with men and women dress both ways. I don't have to CD to be with a man or vice/versa.

Bottom line is it helped me complete my picture. It might not be the right color for you to complete yours.

[Chynna]

Bottom line is it helped me complete my picture. It might not be the right color for you to complete yours.

Poetically spoken,

A quick thought for people who are unsure or scared of transition & acceptance:

I believe feelings, thoughts and emotions are much like colors.....
Yesterday I tried to paint my self-portrait but the colors weren't bright enough!..........
Today I realized my self-awareness goes beyond this blank canvas.
My love for myself has now become a work of art.
You all inspire me.

LOVE,
CHYNNA

Thanks Silky for making me write that on the fly...

[michelle]

I am beginning to feel that all of those years I wore male clothes and now when I put on males pants and shirts that its then I was crossdressing.   This crossdressing in public and for many years in private are what has messed up my life.   When I sit in my living room with my family and on Susan's and taste my lipstick and feel my nylons and skirt,  I am not crossdressing at all but dressing like me.   

[buddJT]

What an interesting thread!

I don't consider myself a CD but I have done it a handful of time in my 30 years existence.  Just putting on my wifes bra and panties nothing further.  During dress ups though it turns my man part so much so I suppose it is all sexual.  But lately as I have matured and in search of where I fit in the spectrum I have noticed my ideal partner when I am dressing up is not a woman or man but a pre-op TS.  I often picture myself as the woman being submissive to a MtF.  Generally in my life I have no attraction towards men and I am greatly attracted to women.   At first I thought I was gay but I know I am not.  What does it say that my ideal mate is a pre-op?  That is the part I am trying to fiugre out.  I think I am associating my wanting to be a woman with my partner having male part and appearing like a woman because I am attracted to a woman.  This may sound confusing.

[Melissa]

What does it say that my ideal mate is a pre-op?

Maybe non-op would be better.  Pre-op implies that they will eventually have the operation and then they wouldn't have the part anymore.

Melissa

[buddJT]

Yes you are right Melissa.  Someone that has gone through the process of doing everthing but the OP.

[sheila18]

Lora:
Am 50+ years old I got married when I was 24 and met my ex and only wife when I was 21. I told her about my female side when I was 22 we met in the military. She went along side me in this journey for the 9 years we were married. At the time I had no answers neither did the proffesional class. It was too much for her because it was not her journey.
  Is good to be honest with your mate. Is not wise to burden them with our questions and doubts because usually the question they must ask is : Does he relly want a man? Just talking from personal experience, I don't mean to preach, sorry if I sound like so.
The relationships that worked for me were the ones where my female mates knew unconditionally that they satisfied me in bed totally. We broke up for other reasons that most Heterosexual couples go through. Me and men never worked because I could tell their BS right away.
That is why I think this site is a Godsend because here you get to chat with all us all our different levels of involment and transitioning.
Is good that you talk with us, I know it helps me. Go easy on hte wife, she loves you.
Love, sheila

[loki_uk]

My sexuality doesn't change but my mind does, when I see a women looking sexy when dressed up my poor mind doesn't know whether to drool over her shoes or look at more obvious areas....ok I usually do both

But my point is that my sexuality is never different, when in bloke mode with my wife my sexuality is quite feminie when things happen anyway, I just got no sexual attraction to men

[sheila18]

My sexuality doesn't change but my mind does, when I see a women looking sexy when dressed up my poor mind doesn't know whether to drool over her shoes or look at more obvious areas....ok I usually do both

But my point is that my sexuality is never different, when in bloke mode with my wife my sexuality is quite feminie when things happen anyway, I just got no sexual attraction to men

yes i relate to that, funny stuff
sheila