Jealousy

[JynxRosalie]

I definitely wouldn't want to be that kind of person! 

Honestly, the only reason I feel this way is because I'm stuck in a place where I can't do anything to start feminizing myself. I can't see a counselor or anything because I would not feel okay looking into that while I live with my family, and wearing female clothing would be out of the question. So, since I can't do anything to make my body feel more like the woman my mind sees, I channel that in the only way that I can: online. So when I see women (heck even hyper feminine men that can totally pass as women) I get upset. Not the nasty, hateful towards others kind of upset. Just more of a....I wish I could have this in my life upset.

[DeanJulian]

YES! Every time I would see a male on television or just walking past me, I'd get so jealous, wanting a flat chest, facial hair, etc. Some days I can't even concentrate in school because I'm looking at the guys in the class and wanting to be like them. It's so frustrating!

[Dodie]

Dean
So amazing the contrast between mtf and ftm
Now that I am cured I see men and think how cool it would be to be a dude but I am not.
I love having a chest and like my body but makeup and hair takes so much time
Good luck with ur transition kiddo

[Ms Grace]

Some days I can't even concentrate in school because I'm looking at the guys in the class and wanting to be like them. It's so frustrating!

I had to go to an all boys school - I know you'd probably think that was awesome, I didn't think so at the time. But I have to say, on reflection I think going to a co-ed school where there were female students as well probably would have sent me into the pits of despair too... being so near to girls and feeling that I couldn't be one of them would have not been fun at all.

[StrykerXIII]

I don't think jealousy quite describes it...I tend to lash out at the ciswomen in my life sometimes. When they're trying to console me during a bad bout of dysphoria-induced depression, I wind up saying things like "You wouldn't know! You're happy with your body!" or "Easy for you to say! You don't have to live with this like I do!"...

...thankfully, I have some really freakin' awesome friends. It just bounces right off them and they go right to reminding me that my body has nothing to do with me being a woman. I even have a fully-lesbian (and I mean RAGING lesbian) friend who flirts with me from time to time to help pick me back up. I brought it up one day ("Why do you flirt with me? I'm not built right, after all...") and her response was, "I don't give a crap how you're built, you ditz, you're a woman and that makes you fair game".  I really do love that gal.

[JynxRosalie]

My girlfriend tells me the same thing, and I love her so much for it. I don't know...I'm just at a point where I NEED to feel more like a girl physically, because the longer I go without it the more I fear that I will be masculine/male with no other choice, what my body will become unchangable and there's no way I'll ever be able to feel -physically- like a woman. That's where my jealousy comes out in me.