To give the short of the situation, I am a very ugly man that resembles an unattractive woman, so I am very sympathetic to the transgender cause. My skin is craterfaced and scarred to hell and back. My jaws are both recessed. Just an ugly, ugly, non masculine man with no sex appeal. As a possible explanation, when I had my serum dihydrotestosterone tested, it was almost at hypogonadal levels (like 2 points above the lowest part of the range) despite my testosterone being in the 700-750 ng/dl range. I feel as though I am trapped in a very ugly man's body.
I don't know if anyone here has sympathy for me, or thinks I am a troll or something, but I can assure you of my miserable life trapped in this body, like all of you. I plan on having my own transitioning surgery to become the man I should have developed into instead of the ugly, poor soul I am today (double jaw/maxillomandibular advancement, leg lengthening, among others), and possibly doing androgenic, DHT based steroids (masteron, proviron, primobolan) and growth hormone for their effects on the body; maybe they could possibly make me grow more masculine features and compensate for my pathetic DHT and GH (I had a stim test done and the response was also pitiful, would explain my height of 5'9" when I was supposed to grow to 6'1" as a child) levels. Being the ugly man I am, women ignore me and chase handsome studs and have their 'fun' while I am on my PC, wasting away, as every time I try to flirt with women I am a 'creep' and am told to go away, or get told they 'have a boyfriend'. Sometimes they are truthful and tell me I am just unattractive to them, but will find 'someone someday' (yeah right, ok).
Thank you.
