The responses here have been amazing. I was left feeling very stuck for a long time. But things are finally starting to come together a little bit. I feel that if I can go out in public once, maybe I will try again tomorrow, when I have my appointment with the electro. Although anything seems easy compared to coming out to parents. My outfit for tomorrow will be my sweater dress, tights (but definitely not nude this time), boots, and a pretty pashmina scarf to hide "Mr. Cactus" until my electro zaps him . The electro already knows I am trans woman and is cool with it.